... of a Student-Teacher
I started my student-teaching Monday. Nobody in the world has any idea how difficult it is to teach. My education professors had told me how draining and tiring it is every single day, but it was hard to believe. But literally, it is drainin, physically and emotionally. It forces you to question who you are at the core, and it can either boosts your spirits or make you depressingly cynical.
My class has 4 10th grade classes. 2 PRE-AP and 2 English 2. Then there are 2 ESL classes. In Texas though, there are no Honors in high schools, and PRE-AP is primarily driven by parents calling and requesting their children be placed into the PRE-AP classes. So, those students are no breadwinners either.
I was placed at LBJ high school, it's about a 20 minute commute, 30 in traffic. It's way North. I don't have a single white student. The divide between the hispanic and black students is story book precise. LBJ is seperated into 2, upstairs is a magnet school (Usually all white) and downstairs is the composite school. Their test scores are seperated as of 3 years ago. Since then, all 3 years, the composite school, where I teach has been ranked "Accademically Unacceptable" so, two more years, the school will be shut down. Thank you Bush. As a current consequence, they have TAKS prep (the statewide test) everyday - the students can't pass the TAKS test which is why the school hasn't been considered acceptable.
On the first day of school, I was asked to prom. Called blondey - had a black student ask /for me to call them "a nappy head nigg**" I was asked if I had a husband and or boyfriend at least 10 times. The principal who they call "Big Daddy" told me he "always has time for an attractive lady" and other folk have commented on my "looks" as well.
The students at this school, have no respect for anyone. They are rude, I don't know who raised them. They all have headphones in their ears the entire class period. They break out into raps during class. Saying "shut the fuck up" is actually a sign of class participation.
The second day of school I was teaching the ESL classroom alone. Two kids speaking Spanish got into a physical fight. One dude stepped to the other dude, the other guy stepped into him, then the initiator pushed him, he flew back - I jumped up and BEGGED them to stop ( I don't have my mandatory malpractice insurance yet) they did. Turns out, the one dude, in Spanish was talking about doing all sorts of really gross things to me - and the other guy jumped up in my defense...Haha. And they say chivalry is dead? I dunno.
Keep in mind in all of the classes students have literally told me NOT to teach at that school. They said nobody respects the teachers, nobody cares about learning, and I would be wasting my time trying to teach them anything...
So...
Yesterday, the teacher wasn't there, I had a sub, and I got to teach all the classes. Black girls don't like me. They literally sassed the shit out of me. I caught kids copying and negotiated class participation with them. They made fun of white girls dancing. They don't have a desire to go to college. It was intense.
My class has 4 10th grade classes. 2 PRE-AP and 2 English 2. Then there are 2 ESL classes. In Texas though, there are no Honors in high schools, and PRE-AP is primarily driven by parents calling and requesting their children be placed into the PRE-AP classes. So, those students are no breadwinners either.
I was placed at LBJ high school, it's about a 20 minute commute, 30 in traffic. It's way North. I don't have a single white student. The divide between the hispanic and black students is story book precise. LBJ is seperated into 2, upstairs is a magnet school (Usually all white) and downstairs is the composite school. Their test scores are seperated as of 3 years ago. Since then, all 3 years, the composite school, where I teach has been ranked "Accademically Unacceptable" so, two more years, the school will be shut down. Thank you Bush. As a current consequence, they have TAKS prep (the statewide test) everyday - the students can't pass the TAKS test which is why the school hasn't been considered acceptable.
On the first day of school, I was asked to prom. Called blondey - had a black student ask /for me to call them "a nappy head nigg**" I was asked if I had a husband and or boyfriend at least 10 times. The principal who they call "Big Daddy" told me he "always has time for an attractive lady" and other folk have commented on my "looks" as well.
The students at this school, have no respect for anyone. They are rude, I don't know who raised them. They all have headphones in their ears the entire class period. They break out into raps during class. Saying "shut the fuck up" is actually a sign of class participation.
The second day of school I was teaching the ESL classroom alone. Two kids speaking Spanish got into a physical fight. One dude stepped to the other dude, the other guy stepped into him, then the initiator pushed him, he flew back - I jumped up and BEGGED them to stop ( I don't have my mandatory malpractice insurance yet) they did. Turns out, the one dude, in Spanish was talking about doing all sorts of really gross things to me - and the other guy jumped up in my defense...Haha. And they say chivalry is dead? I dunno.
Keep in mind in all of the classes students have literally told me NOT to teach at that school. They said nobody respects the teachers, nobody cares about learning, and I would be wasting my time trying to teach them anything...
So...
Yesterday, the teacher wasn't there, I had a sub, and I got to teach all the classes. Black girls don't like me. They literally sassed the shit out of me. I caught kids copying and negotiated class participation with them. They made fun of white girls dancing. They don't have a desire to go to college. It was intense.