Fic: She Falls Apart - Eleven & Epilogue
Title: She Falls Apart
Fandom, Pairing: RPF (Disney) Demi/Selena
Rating: Varies but we'll say M to NC-17 over most chapters.
Disclaimer: This is a work of complete and utter fiction.
Summary: Following An Untitled Prologue which was written for a prompt over at colorwithme this follows what happens between Demi and Selena after.
Authors Notes: Thanks to Faye letscall-l for being the beta for this fic. Thank you so much for all your comments and support for this. All your kinda words meant a lot to me.
It's done. Thank you to everyone who's been reading and commented on this. All your kind words have been an inspiration and just make me smile. This has been hard to write at time, I've always been scared of not doing the subject matter justice.
Warnings: This fic deals with adult situations like sex (and on that note the girls are older now - obviously), alcohol consumption and some general adult themes.
This does deal with some sensitive issues of non-con/date-rape and rape - if this disturbs you please don't read it.
Chapter Eleven
Selena sits in the hotel room and flicks through tv stations. She hears her phone ring and leans over to grab it. Her Mom flashes on the screen.
“Hi Mom” She greets Mandy.
“Hey sweetheart, how are you?” Selena can hear the concern in her mother’s voice.
“Doing a bit better” She answers. She’s been grateful for her time away from her usual routine. She struck a deal with the movie publicists that let her carry on tour with Taylor and Miley. She just had to do local interviews on every stop, a small price to pay to be able to stay with her friends. She knew she couldn’t face going back to her home just yet, all the memories she had been forging with Demi were now ruined, all part of some big charade.
“Demi came by today” Selena’s heart leaps into her throat at the mention of the name “She cleared out all her stuff, it’s all gone Sel. She told me she won’t come back, that she understands what she did can never be forgiven” There is a pause and Selena breaths a sigh of relief knowing at least Demi recognises that Selena will possibly never want to see her again. “Selena, what did she do?” Mandy is distressed, she thought Demi was the best thing to happen to Selena recently and now something horrible had happened between the girls.
“I’ll explain everything to you when I come back to LA Mom”
Mandy sighs, she’s frustrated that her daughter is touring the country and she won’t tell her what is going on. She looks over at her laptop and as she and Selena chat awhile longer she books her flights. She doesn’t care if Selena won’t explain what happened but she is determined to spend this time with her daughter.
Taylor lays back on the bed her fingers idly moving through Miley’s hair.
“I feel like this is all my fault” She whispers. She’s been so concerned about Selena after the younger girl broke down and told them the story, every detail, every twist and turn of Demi’s twisted betrayal.
“Tay, baby, it wasn’t your fault at all” Miley sits up, she holds Taylors gaze making sure her girlfriend understands. “It was all Demi, she’s the one who hurt Sel”
“I shouldn’t have asked her to look after Selena when I couldn’t be there, I shouldn’t have left Selena alone. I knew things weren’t good between them but I still asked her.”
“Tay you didn’t know. Besides I was the one who convinced you to give Demi a chance. We had no idea she’d gotten Selena drunk that time and we certainly had no idea she had something to do with Selena’s drugging.”
Taylor half sobs and half laughs “God this is so twisted, I can’t believe she did that to her”
Miley pulls Taylor close and presses a kiss against her temple “I’m shocked. I knew she’d gotten a bit wild there. I mean there were plenty of stories about things she’d gotten up to.” Miley takes a breath “But nothing like this, it’s just incomprehensible”
“I know” Taylor pulls Miley tight against her and presses their lips together. She just wants to spend some time trying to forget about how people hurt each other and enjoy the time she has with Miley. As the younger girls fingers curl into her hair the kisses become more heated, tongues slide against each other. Miley is soon straddling Taylor, who can’t help but grin into the kiss.
“What?” Miley mumbles against the blondes lips.
“Always on top” Taylor smirks.
“Always” Miley laughs, pressing her hips against the girl beneath her, causing her to let out a moan.
Selena wraps her arms around her Mom as soon as she spots her in the hotel lobby. Tears spill from her cheeks and she sobs. She had told her not to come but she suddenly realises she really just needs her Mom to hold her and look after her now.
“Selena” Mandy brushes her hair softy. Selena pulls away and brushes tears from her cheeks.
“Mom, she ….” She doesn’t know how to start explaining this to her Mom “She broke me. I feel like I’m in a million different pieces.” She sniffles “I thought she was the one, and I forgave her. I waited. Then I gave myself to her completely only to find out she’d been lying this whole time”
Mandy stiffened slightly, then tugged Selena towards the elevators to head up to the hotel suite. She had a bad feeling she knew what Demi may have been lying about, that all this time she knew about Michaels intentions and had let him get away with it. He was after all her friend, she had brought him to that party. It’s not until they reach the hotel room that she encourages her daughter to continue and explain what happened.
“It was her Mom” Selena sobs “It wasn’t him. Demi took me home that night”
Mandy feels like she’s just been run over by a dump truck. She pulls her sobbing daughter into a tight hug and just holds her while she cries. She has nothing to say to her, she wishes there were words but she’s having trouble even comprehending how sweet little Demetria Lovato could do something so horrible.
“What do I do Mom, I feel like my whole life has fallen apart”
“We pick up the pieces Sel” She whispers. “We find every little shard and we slowly glue them all back into place. You don’t have to do it alone, me and Taylor and Miley will help you” She squeezes her daughter. She knows it’s going to take a long time to pick up the pieces from this.
Epilogue
Selena can’t help but think Taylor looks amazing in her flowing white gown.
She runs her fingers over her own simple white dress, it is simple but elegant, made to complement Taylors dress but not to distract from it. Selena glances over at the other side of the alter where Brandi and Noah are dressed in similar black dresses. Miley is standing with them in a black dress to match Taylors. They both look stunning and absolutely blissful. Their fingers are intertwined as the celebrant reads out the vows. Selena’s heard them so many times as from the nervous brides to be that she sort of zones out. She looks out into the rows of the audience. Her breath hitches slightly as she spots Demi sitting with Nick. She can’t help but think the new haircut looks amazing. Nick also looks dashing in his tux, she spots him quickly wiping away a tear. She feels a mix of emotions as she watches Demi sitting quietly. She knows that Miley speaks to her, she knows this because Taylor spent a week sleeping at her house after she found out. The fight had been huge and in the end Selena had to find enough forgiveness towards Demi so Taylor’s relationship wouldn’t crumble. She hasn’t actually seen Demi until today. Taylor and Miley respectfully never mentioned her. She could see the lingering desire in Miley’s eyes to broach the subject, but Taylor had a strong resolve to never speak of her to Selena.
She of course couldn’t avoid knowing about the developments in Demi’s career. About new albums that showed a huge growth and maturity. Of course everyone knew about Demi coming out, a huge concert packed with fans and she just blurted into the microphone that she refused to hide it any more. The backlash had hurt her career in some ways, but after being dropped by Hollywood records, after the decline in sales and pressure from ‘family values’ groups, she was free to do her own thing.
Selena had listened to the independent albums, two over the last few years. Their story was prominent in them.
At the reception Selena finds herself being whisked around the dance floor by Nick. They are both watching Taylor and Miley giggle and laugh as they dance together. He holds Selena close and they share quiet conversation as they move around the dance floor.
“I’m glad you came” She is glad he’s here, she enjoys spending time with Nick and she thought he might not want to be there.
“It fills me with joy to see her so happy. I know we made the right choice” he does sound happy. She knows he still wishes it was him, but he loves Miley too much to begrudge her happiness. “You know she loves you Selena” Nick broaches the subject of Demi bluntly. Selena’s not surprised, the two had become close friends again after she was dropped from her label. The brothers had been a big part of her first new album, it was amazing to see them going back to square one in some ways yet producing something so amazingly new and different.
“I don’t think I could ever forgive her Nick” She shakes her head “Do you really think anyone could.”
He shakes his head “I like to think you could, you have a big heart Sel. I just want you to know that everything she does, she is hoping it somehow will redeem her” He looks at her with hope that his words could mend the rift between the girls.
Selena laughs bitterly “Nothing could redeem it”
The song ends and Nick smiles sadly at her before moving off the dance floor towards Kevin. Selena feels a tap on her shoulder to find Demi standing there.
“Care to dance?” She asks. It’s the first time they’ve been face to face since Selena broke her nose. Her heart starts pounding fiercely and she doesn’t know how to react. She looks amazing, she’s matured over the years, her hair is the shortest Selena ever remembers it and she’s in fantastic shape. She hesitates to answer. Selena knows she can never escape the fact Demi was her first true love, but she also can’t escape the horrible things she did.
“Just one dance?” Demi asks again “You don’t even have to talk to me”
Selena nods and Demi pulls her close. The perfume is familiar and Selena finds herself taking a deep breath as they move around the dance-floor.
It’s three songs later and they are still wrapped up together. Selena pushes Demi away suddenly and shakes her head furiously.
“No” She states firmly “I’m not letting you in again Demi”
“I don’t expect you to” There are tears welling in Demi’s eyes “I just wanted a dance, to pretend for a few moments that I didn’t fuck everything up incredibly” tears slip down her cheeks “I did something so horrible because …” She pauses “No there’s no excuse for what I did” She leans close and kisses Selena’s cheek softly. “I never really got to say it before, so I guess this is Goodbye” Demi then turns and walks off the dance floor. Selena watches as she leaves the reception, she glances over to see Taylor and Miley watching them. She sucks in a deep breath before she decides to follow Demi.
She may never forgive her for what happened. But despite everything it was Demi and she just couldn’t bear to let her walk out of her life.
END