Loves and happiness
A year later, I sit listening to a pre-recorded broadcast from UCSD internet radio of Helsott, promoting their new EP and showcase for Rotten Records on June 2nd, 2012. http://ksdt.ucsd.edu/shows/DJ_Femme_Metale_2012-05-22_1800.mp3 I hear the voice of my lover, my Eric. We have come far. We have fallen in love. We never want to be apart. We want to marry and be together the rest of our lives. This is quite the oppostite of what I planned or expected from our early reltaionship and dating affair. It was not hard to choose him from the guys I was interested in. He is so supportive and sweet and kind and affectionate and fun and silly and sexy. He always encourages me when I'm down. He cuddles me to sleep when I've become exhausted by the day. He takes care of me so I can take care of my baby. He never stops thinking of me (and never stops telling me so!) This man means so much to me. He is exactly what I've needed in my life. He is my best friend in a deeper way than I've even experienced. And he is one Hel of a lover. Bedtime is the best part of our weeks! I can't recall being so sexually satisfied by another, so consistently. Sex is important to me, so this is a big deal. It's not only what he does for me, but also that he has welcomed Emmy as a part of his life. He was naming the most important things in his life during a typical conversation, and near the top of his list was my little girl <3 This makes my mommy heart indescribably happy!
Emmy is and will always be the most important thing in my life. She brings so much joy to my heart and happiness to every day. She grows more beautiful, smarter, and sillier every day! I am so proud of her. She turned 3 a couple months ago. She's big for her age, which is no surprise because mama's no little person herself. I've never cut her hair and it's still red and curly. Her smile lights up a room and when she sees me come in from work, there is nothing like her running up to me, arms spread open for her hugs, with "Mama's home! Mama's home! Hi mama, you're home! Pick me up!" She talks INCESSANTLY, even in her sleep. I LOVE having conversations with her and finding out what is going on in her head. He imagination never stops. She loves animals naturally. She is friendly and is learning how to socialize with kids her age (she's been around adults her whole life until somewhat recently). She has learned to draw stick figures and many shapes, and recognizes letters and numbers. She also loves music (but she's picky! Not all metal is OK, but she does recognize what's "Like in Eric's car!" or "It's mama's 'muskit'!") and has inborn rhythm for dancing. I am so proud of my girl.
I daily anticipate the time that Eric, Emmy and I have our own life together. We will be happy and have so few cares. I know life is hard and never perfect, but we have been given certain people to make it seem less and more so. Eric is hoping to get signed at the showcase next weekend. Helsott will finally make money, and will get out of California on tour. I will miss my man, but I know he will be doing what he loves and is good at. Their music has been evolving and becoming more epic with each new song, each new gig, each new member! My heart is always with Eric when I miss the shows (which is more often than I get to see them because of work and the everlasting babysitting issue) and he misses me too. It is a true honor and privilege to be his girl and always in his heart and on his mind.
I am so loved and so in love.