Some updates
My poor Alvin had a miserable night because of me. I've been sick enough that my manager made me go home early today. ugh. Last night I ended up having PMS, headache and a cold all in one shot! LOL Poor Alvin told me that he'll eventually have to get used to ahving a woman around the house, especially if we do get married in the future. =)
Well, I'm seeing my psych today and I have a possible job interview. It's for private piano teaching in a music studio. I'll still be working at Gate because this is just for extra income. We're trying to save up for a place to live by six months. We haven't decided how we are going to do that yet.
Yesterday, I cleaned up his room trying to get rid of the "bachelor" look. LOL. I didn't move things around, but just made it cleaner. And now he sayd he can't find anything! But he never could find anything before his room was clean! =P
In a month of two we'll be heading to Savannah to see his parents. Joy! I'm quite nervous about meeting them since they know I have AIDS. But hopefully it'll work out fine.
The reason why I love Alvin is of two things, he's caring and he's faithful and he's proven to be both! He's faithful because all this time while I was looking at Ray and wanting Ray to be my husband, he was always at my side. He's always supported whatever decision I made. He's caring because he'll always do the right thing. For instance, yesterday we witnessed a crash. I thought the other cars would stop and become witnesses because I just wanted to go home. But he told me to turn back and I sighed and rolled my eyes and turned back. Unfortunately, no one stopped to help the crash victims! So Alvin got out of the car and rushed to see if everyone was okay. He waited until the police came by and explained to him what happened. I need to be that way someday! I feel bad because I was thinking of myself and all this time he was thinking of those people.
I just had another epiphany the other day. When Alvin said "I love you" to me a while back, I couldn't say it. But then I realized just recently, that I was really mad about it! I wanted Ray to say that to me first, not Alvin. So I had to reexamine myself and ask God to show me my husband to be. More and more each day Alvin has proven to be that husband for me. He loves me no matter what. We're both scared and we want to be safe from my disease, be he still loves me and I'm so grateful he does! Ray never wanted a committment. He only wanted one thing, was to get into my pants. Thankfully he never did! =) I'm surprised it took him six and a half years to realize that he would never have that chance. God was good to me and protected my heart from being hurt by him. And now God gave me the okay to open my heart to Alvin.
OH yes, we both decided to become Lutherans because he didn't want to get away from the Catholic traditions and I didn't want to have the Catholic teachings. Thankfully, the Lutherans are a protestant church and still uphold some Catholic traditions. I've been atending the Lutheran church for several years way back when I was living in Houston.
Well, time for me to go get ready. My Alvin will be home shortly. I'm currently visiting him at his house since we have some stuff to take care of.
God is good. Indeed!