cant take it...
im going to explode with these feelings kept inside of me and livejournal is the one place that can handle my pathetic realities. I came up to my room tonight after hanging out with my friends went to jessica's room sat in there got insulted. Went to my computer spoke to her again, got insulted until i finally said that hurt my feelings! i feel a sense of last year...some things may never change and maybe i havent learned that much from alyssa. I thought she taught me about people and how to stick up for myself to stop being oblivious to how it effects me but it seems i constantly take more and more until i break. Until i get to this point that i am now...nothing seems happy right now, i know i am happy because i have amazing people in my life...i know of that! Bj sara fin kristen george all of these people are my loves and jess is too...she just doesnt understand me. I have found greatness this year from different aspects of my life and lookd for many positive things...that i have found but for now nothing seems lightened...i feel like balling up into a blanket and listening to breathe me....