Work is draining my soul and my GM is the devil.
The past few weeks it's been really frustrating. I thought that once we got past Mother's Day we would get into the groove of summer and everything would be ok.
Not so much.
Mike quit on Saturday. I'm sad because we lost a good server and that I felt that it was partly my fault. I understand completely why he left and I sometimes wonder why he didn't leave sooner. I'm also glad that he's going to be a happier person because he left. And it's kind of a relief that I don't have to deal with the effects of my little crush on me. I have a boyfriend who I love very much and who I hope to spend the rest of my life with but it's hard not to crush on someone who you've liked for a long time. So now I don't have to worry if I'm doing any kind of favoritism in any way.
My friend Michelle is leaving in a couple of weeks for the big city and I'm also feeling conflicted. We're not as good friends as we used to be. We don't talk, we don't hang out anymore, we only see each other at work and there I'm so wrapped up in managing and she's so angry all the time that it's really degrading our relationship. But I can't help but see why her husband would leave her so often. I've never met someone who's so angry and emotional all the time. She needs to stop serving, transferring to Chicago won't make her happy. The change of venue will put a bright light on things for a little bit but eventually she'll get angry again.
And my GM? I want to kill her on a daily basis. She has a way of talking to you that makes you feel like you're the stupidest person in the world and that everything she says is reasonable, until you try to do what she says in the real world. It feels like every day I just want to turn in my two weeks and see how much they would flounder around with out me. I really should talk to her about what I'm feeling instead of holding it back but I feel like it's just going to make everything worse. I'm not the best communicator sometimes and she is really really really horrible at communication, English is definitely a second language for her. I don't even know how to explain to her the stress and how I feel when she talks to me.
Not so much.
Mike quit on Saturday. I'm sad because we lost a good server and that I felt that it was partly my fault. I understand completely why he left and I sometimes wonder why he didn't leave sooner. I'm also glad that he's going to be a happier person because he left. And it's kind of a relief that I don't have to deal with the effects of my little crush on me. I have a boyfriend who I love very much and who I hope to spend the rest of my life with but it's hard not to crush on someone who you've liked for a long time. So now I don't have to worry if I'm doing any kind of favoritism in any way.
My friend Michelle is leaving in a couple of weeks for the big city and I'm also feeling conflicted. We're not as good friends as we used to be. We don't talk, we don't hang out anymore, we only see each other at work and there I'm so wrapped up in managing and she's so angry all the time that it's really degrading our relationship. But I can't help but see why her husband would leave her so often. I've never met someone who's so angry and emotional all the time. She needs to stop serving, transferring to Chicago won't make her happy. The change of venue will put a bright light on things for a little bit but eventually she'll get angry again.
And my GM? I want to kill her on a daily basis. She has a way of talking to you that makes you feel like you're the stupidest person in the world and that everything she says is reasonable, until you try to do what she says in the real world. It feels like every day I just want to turn in my two weeks and see how much they would flounder around with out me. I really should talk to her about what I'm feeling instead of holding it back but I feel like it's just going to make everything worse. I'm not the best communicator sometimes and she is really really really horrible at communication, English is definitely a second language for her. I don't even know how to explain to her the stress and how I feel when she talks to me.