STOP IT!
I'm sick of it, I'm finished, nothing's every going to change, why do you have to be like this, you hate my family, how do you think I felt for a year, I give up, just go back to your room and pout, I'M SICK OF YOU!
Please, just stop telling me these horrible things Tim! Maybe I'm the one who can't take it any more! Stop hurting me! Stop making me cry! Stop it! Stop IT!
I DO understand, I'm not stupid, I understand more than you think I do. I know you miss your family, and I DON'T hate your family. It's just that I'm not comfortable around them yet... and they aren't very welcoming people. I don't care if YOU go hang out with them, but STOP making me cry! STOP making me feel like the worst person alive just because I want to see you when you get off of work, and all you want to see is them! Have you even realized that they never called you while you were in P.A. and gues what, nothing has changed sense we have moved to Iowa. Things have changed with them, they have a life to go on with, so do we Tim, our life together. When I ask you if you want to go out to dinner together I don't want you to suggest inviting your mother or you sister. When I ask if you want to go for a romatic walk in the sunset, I don't want you to invite your grandparents or Charlie. Charlie is expecting a baby. Your grandparents are in bed, your mom has a migrane, your sister is at work. They have lives too! So should we!!! Everytimes I try to explain this too you, you get angry and tell me that I hate your family, well I DON'T because they are MY family now too! So stop seperating everone. My mom is your mom, yours is mine! This is a hard time for me too! I moved away from my mom and brothers, away from everyone and everything that I had come to love in P.A. and when I need you the most here in Iowa you are away with your family! Don't you realize that I have NO ONE now!? I hardly ever see my dad, hannah has school and a job and a life, I can't just call her every time I need someone to talk to, and I haven't even spoken to my Aunt. I need someone to support me right now!! Why can't you understand... I know you need time with your family! But you are my husband too! I... wish I could tell you all of this with out you getting angry with me. I just want to talk to you!
I'm sorry.. I just vented everything into my journal, but hey, thats what a journal is for right? I have to go now, I don't feel so happy.
Bye
Please, just stop telling me these horrible things Tim! Maybe I'm the one who can't take it any more! Stop hurting me! Stop making me cry! Stop it! Stop IT!
I DO understand, I'm not stupid, I understand more than you think I do. I know you miss your family, and I DON'T hate your family. It's just that I'm not comfortable around them yet... and they aren't very welcoming people. I don't care if YOU go hang out with them, but STOP making me cry! STOP making me feel like the worst person alive just because I want to see you when you get off of work, and all you want to see is them! Have you even realized that they never called you while you were in P.A. and gues what, nothing has changed sense we have moved to Iowa. Things have changed with them, they have a life to go on with, so do we Tim, our life together. When I ask you if you want to go out to dinner together I don't want you to suggest inviting your mother or you sister. When I ask if you want to go for a romatic walk in the sunset, I don't want you to invite your grandparents or Charlie. Charlie is expecting a baby. Your grandparents are in bed, your mom has a migrane, your sister is at work. They have lives too! So should we!!! Everytimes I try to explain this too you, you get angry and tell me that I hate your family, well I DON'T because they are MY family now too! So stop seperating everone. My mom is your mom, yours is mine! This is a hard time for me too! I moved away from my mom and brothers, away from everyone and everything that I had come to love in P.A. and when I need you the most here in Iowa you are away with your family! Don't you realize that I have NO ONE now!? I hardly ever see my dad, hannah has school and a job and a life, I can't just call her every time I need someone to talk to, and I haven't even spoken to my Aunt. I need someone to support me right now!! Why can't you understand... I know you need time with your family! But you are my husband too! I... wish I could tell you all of this with out you getting angry with me. I just want to talk to you!
I'm sorry.. I just vented everything into my journal, but hey, thats what a journal is for right? I have to go now, I don't feel so happy.
Bye