139 again.....again
I have a headache. I was bad yesterday. I'm such a loser ugg. I only went over like 100 cals today. But i still feel guitly, i ate even when i waan;t hungry? Why? Cause i felt like ti could since i didn't gain. I'm so dumb. Just cause the scale said 139 i figured ok i can eat breakfast. grrr! I was looking back in my food journal from last year. So much stricter. I need to recreate my old journal. Eat all the same things....maybe that will get me back on track haha. I'm sooo mad at myself! I need to just not eat. Thats all. But i do out of bordem. I went for a 30 min walk with my son again today. So thats good. I need to go do some weights and try to get on that torture device of mine. Any kind of exercise will be good for me so i need to just stop being lazy and do it....i wish i didn't live so close to the ghetto...and walmart haha. Otherwise i'd put my running shoes to good use. I hate running, but i'm desperate. Well the eliptical it is then. I'm go force myself onto it. 30 mins burns 300 cals. If i put my 10 lb weight belt on i can burn a little bit more i think....I'm soooo sad right now. Oh and guess what else?
I'm still on my period. What the hell? I decided i don't like my new birth control. Not one bit. I've been bleeding for well over a week now. And not just spotting, like full blown i'm gonna die shit. I think a want to swithc back to lo estrin. This new shit sucks. Ok well i'll go off and try to exercise i guess haha ehhhh.....
I'm still on my period. What the hell? I decided i don't like my new birth control. Not one bit. I've been bleeding for well over a week now. And not just spotting, like full blown i'm gonna die shit. I think a want to swithc back to lo estrin. This new shit sucks. Ok well i'll go off and try to exercise i guess haha ehhhh.....