135.4
Oh my jeezuz! My ideal weight! Thank u lord!
So yesterday I was 137 most of the day. I hit 136. something before bed again. I knew I'd be retaining water yesterday. So this morning a huge grin spread across my face when i saw this number! It is amazing! This was my first happy weight! I briefly got to 129 one day senior year of highschool. I want to beat that out. I'd love to be 125, or 120. 120 is by goal by january, but If i reach it quick enough I'll got for 115. I don't know if i go any lower if i can maintain the weight for long.
Go me! Yesterday I made some mac n cheese. My weakness. I ate half of it and was full! But with the fullness often comes nausea as of late. So you can guess what happened next. I don't ever think I get all of it up, but what I can has been making a difference lately. I took some laxtives too yesterday. I just wanted to make sure I saw good numbers this morning so I don't binge.
Funds are low...pay day is wed and my son's b-day is only days away. I need to go get gas n food 4 him before pay day. I'm doing so good. I have a few apples I haven't touched yet (shame shame!) So I'll need to eat those before I go shopping on wednesday. I've been doing pretty good with veggies. I'm very proud of myself. Maybe I'll be able to pull off a decent halloween costume this year? I'm not very...slutty? lol but the outfit I want will probably show some leg. Not because I want one that does, but because all the cheap versions of the Marie Antonette costumes are leggy. I'm not a leg shower. U wont catch me in the middle of summer with chick shorts on. I'll wear boy shorts or bermuta(spelling) shorts though...My thighs are yucky at any weight. I'm just always going to be a pear shape. Nothing I can do about. Plus 50 lbs later, flab doesn't magically go away. Fat cells only shrink, they don't disapear. So I am cursed with my elastic arms, and squishy thighs. Oh well.
Enough rambling! Go me! 135 or lower tomorrow! No high cal food today! Apples, and no purging! Let see if i can do it!
So yesterday I was 137 most of the day. I hit 136. something before bed again. I knew I'd be retaining water yesterday. So this morning a huge grin spread across my face when i saw this number! It is amazing! This was my first happy weight! I briefly got to 129 one day senior year of highschool. I want to beat that out. I'd love to be 125, or 120. 120 is by goal by january, but If i reach it quick enough I'll got for 115. I don't know if i go any lower if i can maintain the weight for long.
Go me! Yesterday I made some mac n cheese. My weakness. I ate half of it and was full! But with the fullness often comes nausea as of late. So you can guess what happened next. I don't ever think I get all of it up, but what I can has been making a difference lately. I took some laxtives too yesterday. I just wanted to make sure I saw good numbers this morning so I don't binge.
Funds are low...pay day is wed and my son's b-day is only days away. I need to go get gas n food 4 him before pay day. I'm doing so good. I have a few apples I haven't touched yet (shame shame!) So I'll need to eat those before I go shopping on wednesday. I've been doing pretty good with veggies. I'm very proud of myself. Maybe I'll be able to pull off a decent halloween costume this year? I'm not very...slutty? lol but the outfit I want will probably show some leg. Not because I want one that does, but because all the cheap versions of the Marie Antonette costumes are leggy. I'm not a leg shower. U wont catch me in the middle of summer with chick shorts on. I'll wear boy shorts or bermuta(spelling) shorts though...My thighs are yucky at any weight. I'm just always going to be a pear shape. Nothing I can do about. Plus 50 lbs later, flab doesn't magically go away. Fat cells only shrink, they don't disapear. So I am cursed with my elastic arms, and squishy thighs. Oh well.
Enough rambling! Go me! 135 or lower tomorrow! No high cal food today! Apples, and no purging! Let see if i can do it!