Interesting Times
What else can I say? Its either going to be a time I'll start making good strides forward or fall flat on my face. I feel as if something is about to happen, but I'm not sure what it'll be.
And I think its time I let things out...I should have done this a long time ago.
My dad's passing is still having a big impact on me...but it doesn't make me sad anymore, two years and four months after he left us. My only hope is that he has some pride in what his youngest son is trying to do so far away from his family.
I love you dad, I'm trying my best.
Valentine's day is coming up, and obviously the 'love' issue is going to come up. I don't really know if I'm going to breeze through the holiday or get moody. Chances are I'll be moody. I've had zip, zero, zilch, nada, niet, NO luck with the opposite sex. Given I haven't tried to go out and find anyone...I really don't want to have to search for someone. I've met many a good woman over the internet, just none around where I have lived. Did I mention that my luck sucks as well, when it comes to that issue?
Maybe its a blessing in disguise...? I never was good at waiting for things to happen.
One thing that's been bothering me lately has been some stuff that I do. It feels like I'm trying too hard to be a model person, and chastise anyone I see that I think is acting foolish, causing trouble, etc. I don't have near as much self control as I thought I did, because I still let myself get upset too easily. Its like I try too hard to do the right thing, and something/someone gets upset along the way. But that's the way I am. Nothing I can do about that unless I change all of the principles I've lived by most of my life.
More to come later today after I get some sleep...3rd shift sucks. hehe
And I think its time I let things out...I should have done this a long time ago.
My dad's passing is still having a big impact on me...but it doesn't make me sad anymore, two years and four months after he left us. My only hope is that he has some pride in what his youngest son is trying to do so far away from his family.
I love you dad, I'm trying my best.
Valentine's day is coming up, and obviously the 'love' issue is going to come up. I don't really know if I'm going to breeze through the holiday or get moody. Chances are I'll be moody. I've had zip, zero, zilch, nada, niet, NO luck with the opposite sex. Given I haven't tried to go out and find anyone...I really don't want to have to search for someone. I've met many a good woman over the internet, just none around where I have lived. Did I mention that my luck sucks as well, when it comes to that issue?
Maybe its a blessing in disguise...? I never was good at waiting for things to happen.
One thing that's been bothering me lately has been some stuff that I do. It feels like I'm trying too hard to be a model person, and chastise anyone I see that I think is acting foolish, causing trouble, etc. I don't have near as much self control as I thought I did, because I still let myself get upset too easily. Its like I try too hard to do the right thing, and something/someone gets upset along the way. But that's the way I am. Nothing I can do about that unless I change all of the principles I've lived by most of my life.
More to come later today after I get some sleep...3rd shift sucks. hehe