it's been a long time coming.
what do you do when you're eighteen and tell everyone that you are in no way interested in dating, relationships, or love, and you realize that you are utterly and pathetically obsessed with one of the few friends you have left?
i've spent the past several nights breaking down into bone shivering sobs with the most random inspirations. tonight, it's the epiphany i just had: i'm in some sort of mad love with someone who is literally impossible. i can't love him. i can't even get too attached to his friendship. there's no way. no goddamn way.
i am starting to not even make sense to myself and it scares me to death.
i've spent the past several nights breaking down into bone shivering sobs with the most random inspirations. tonight, it's the epiphany i just had: i'm in some sort of mad love with someone who is literally impossible. i can't love him. i can't even get too attached to his friendship. there's no way. no goddamn way.
i am starting to not even make sense to myself and it scares me to death.