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What matt told me in the RCC cafeteria today - I didn't really find it as funny as I demonstrated to have found it. Local Matt that is. You won't be hearing much about the one that's far away - we don't interact anymore.
First of all, I should mention that I strayed from talking about my boyfriend with him - I knew that he'd be real emotional and needy if I did that. So I chose not to talk about it. I really didn't want to put up with any bullshit.
Anyway, I remember telling you a good while back about those events with Nelson [if you don't remember - the one from Raging Waters], and apparently Matt is as desperate as ever for affection. Or I think. Maybe they were just horny. But my suspisions were confirmed, and Nelson really is the way they say he is. The way that I thought he was. All correct. And just now revealed is Matt's knowledge of this the whole damn time we knew Nelson. Because they had a 'thing' back then, he said, but that he was in this 'self-denial stage.' Matt can be, sometimes, the biggest dirtbag I know. I am so glad I never went out with him. Just the way he talks about things - It makes me furious. But anyway, Matt updates me with how Tony, the dirtbag who played around with his emotions for a good long while, called him yet again. So I couldn't wait to hear this one and how matt once again was soft on him and didn't cuss him out.
But then...Matt delves into how he told NELSON this when he came back to visit...and then I press for more information on what they talked about. Matt didn't want to get into it but see, I didn't see what was coming AT ALL. I thought we were on the same page as each other and that was that Nelson was just a creepy touchy-feely jerk. I said, "lol just get straight to the point. Did he touch you?" joking of course because that happened to me. Matt was smiling and laughing but it was no laughing matter. He starts off with, "Well we kissed" and I wanted to scream and say WHAT? but I held back and made a comedy out of it. and then he reveals that he started it. I guess he'll stoop that low as to just try that on anyone - I don't want to hear this "I was alone and tony hurt me" bullshit - Matt, sometimes you have to be accountable for your own goddamn actions instead of using others for your pleasure. Granted I am not fond of Nelson in any respect but it's just so disgusting to know someone who would actually be base enough to do this.
Ok. To make a long story short he made out with him and then Nelson decided to spend the night. and then matt put it this way: "let me just say this: I didn't expect nelson to be a bottom" and I was like WHAT?!?! and apparently they fucked. I asked how nelson felt about this afterward because of course as stupid and selfish as I think matt is he didn't think about how this would make him feel. Matt told me that he didn't want it to be like a hook-up thing every time Nelson comes to visit. But you know something, I can just imagine that it will turn into that. The problem is that Matt gets emotional and wants 'a boyfriend' but how the hell is he going to get one if he keeps acting like this. He doesn't like it when I'm straightforward with him. Not a lot of people do and in fact, I hate it myself. But this is so disgusting - just the emotional aspect of it - and what a mess. even though I think he's a creep, I hope nelson is okay. I am on his side. I would expect that after the make out session, the cuddling, and fucking they did while he was here, that nelson would expect something more from matt than to say 'it was just a one night thing.' Ugh. I just can't get over that. but I Was laughing the whole time because yeah, it is pretty funny that we thought nelson was that way the whole time and I ended up being right and he really did want some male pootnanny. Matt also told me that xtine walked in on them together and nelson jumped higher than a rocketship launched into space off the bed - which was funny. But I am going to keep my promise and not talk about it to anyone [well except brandon :)]
School is...ehh.
well I'm hungry, it's food time
First of all, I should mention that I strayed from talking about my boyfriend with him - I knew that he'd be real emotional and needy if I did that. So I chose not to talk about it. I really didn't want to put up with any bullshit.
Anyway, I remember telling you a good while back about those events with Nelson [if you don't remember - the one from Raging Waters], and apparently Matt is as desperate as ever for affection. Or I think. Maybe they were just horny. But my suspisions were confirmed, and Nelson really is the way they say he is. The way that I thought he was. All correct. And just now revealed is Matt's knowledge of this the whole damn time we knew Nelson. Because they had a 'thing' back then, he said, but that he was in this 'self-denial stage.' Matt can be, sometimes, the biggest dirtbag I know. I am so glad I never went out with him. Just the way he talks about things - It makes me furious. But anyway, Matt updates me with how Tony, the dirtbag who played around with his emotions for a good long while, called him yet again. So I couldn't wait to hear this one and how matt once again was soft on him and didn't cuss him out.
But then...Matt delves into how he told NELSON this when he came back to visit...and then I press for more information on what they talked about. Matt didn't want to get into it but see, I didn't see what was coming AT ALL. I thought we were on the same page as each other and that was that Nelson was just a creepy touchy-feely jerk. I said, "lol just get straight to the point. Did he touch you?" joking of course because that happened to me. Matt was smiling and laughing but it was no laughing matter. He starts off with, "Well we kissed" and I wanted to scream and say WHAT? but I held back and made a comedy out of it. and then he reveals that he started it. I guess he'll stoop that low as to just try that on anyone - I don't want to hear this "I was alone and tony hurt me" bullshit - Matt, sometimes you have to be accountable for your own goddamn actions instead of using others for your pleasure. Granted I am not fond of Nelson in any respect but it's just so disgusting to know someone who would actually be base enough to do this.
Ok. To make a long story short he made out with him and then Nelson decided to spend the night. and then matt put it this way: "let me just say this: I didn't expect nelson to be a bottom" and I was like WHAT?!?! and apparently they fucked. I asked how nelson felt about this afterward because of course as stupid and selfish as I think matt is he didn't think about how this would make him feel. Matt told me that he didn't want it to be like a hook-up thing every time Nelson comes to visit. But you know something, I can just imagine that it will turn into that. The problem is that Matt gets emotional and wants 'a boyfriend' but how the hell is he going to get one if he keeps acting like this. He doesn't like it when I'm straightforward with him. Not a lot of people do and in fact, I hate it myself. But this is so disgusting - just the emotional aspect of it - and what a mess. even though I think he's a creep, I hope nelson is okay. I am on his side. I would expect that after the make out session, the cuddling, and fucking they did while he was here, that nelson would expect something more from matt than to say 'it was just a one night thing.' Ugh. I just can't get over that. but I Was laughing the whole time because yeah, it is pretty funny that we thought nelson was that way the whole time and I ended up being right and he really did want some male pootnanny. Matt also told me that xtine walked in on them together and nelson jumped higher than a rocketship launched into space off the bed - which was funny. But I am going to keep my promise and not talk about it to anyone [well except brandon :)]
School is...ehh.
well I'm hungry, it's food time