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Alrighty, so all the holidays are officially over and school is going to start up this coming monday. I am kind of excited to be going back to school. I will feel like I have a life again.
Yesterday, Krystle and local Matt came with me to take care of getting the books for school. We went, and didn't find much. the girl who scanned my book for check out told me that I didn't need it for my particular professor, who only uses lecture notes for his class. I didn't buy it. I figured that if he decides to use the book this semester I'd excuse myself and go buy it. lol
and about the calculus book, they want 140 dollars..for a USED one. yeah F-ing right, like I'm really going to pay that much when I found it on amazon for 100. so I walked out of there with nothing. NOW about the outing with matt and krystle. it started off well. we began at starburcks [lol @ krystle] and I was hoping that matt and krystle would get along - matt's rather bitchy around new people and krystle is very sensitive, like me, so I was wondering what would happen. I was really nervous about it at first because krystle was busting all these jokes and matt seemed to be almost rolling his eyes at her [well toward me so she couldn't see] and all she is doing is trying to be sociable and ease the tension [she's really good at that] so I was upset at that. but after we cracked all these jokes about my ex-husband burger king and how he was making the fry smell stronger to lure me back in and actually pay $1.99 for his stupid double. We went and teased him by going in, and only checking my BALANCE on my debit card [which I Was pleased with] and then loudly proclaiming how much of that money I was going to spend at CARL'S JR. ... lol!
after that matt seemed to warm up to her a little more. I Was pleased with that. but let it be added that here I began to get resentful towards matt for just being there. I wasn't pleased with his behavior in the beginning; his unwillingness to get along with one of my best friends.
However we hop on the bus to norco, and after I encounter this really strange computer nerd who laughs a little too loud at jokes that aren't that funny, Matt tells me as we get off the bus, "I know why you like her" and "lol here is where we really connected" and those are just matt things to say. so I didn't mind him then and then we encounter the fiasco at the bookstore I described earlier. we left and then ate at carl's jr. It was SO good. afterwards we walked back to the spectrum where we started and used the restroom at one of the stores [I know you wanted to know that] and decided to hang out at Kmart - lol. well there is nothing else to do in riverside! Anyway, this is where it jets downhill with matt again. krystle is hi-larious as usual, and it's what I love about her. but then in kmart as krystle proceeded to check to see if she could get credit there, matt made some comment that irritated me as he invited me somewhere with his parents. I know I should be talking more about the good stuff that was said but I also mentioned that early on in this little adventure that I grew to resent his presence and found myself wanting more 1 on 1 time with krystle. Anyway, he talks about how cold it is where we're going [if I want to go that is] and then makes this comment about my weight [yet AGAIN!].
he says, by the way, you'll be needing something like this *grabs something warm* because *pauses, takes a scan of me up and down with his eyes* you have NOTHING on you. literally nothing.---- And then when I looked up at him and then away, and didn't say anything, he realized what he had done and immediately said 'I'm sorry!' and I said 'oh that's okay, you just keep fucking up anyway.' and then after about 5 mins of searching for krystle he says 'I'm sorry' again but I Say 'matt you know I'm sensitive about this particular subject, so just stay away from it.' and he says ok. but due to matt's INsensitive nature, I know that will not be possible. So then he loses points with me there too. Krystle discovers she can't get credit at Kmart because she doesn't have a credit card [lol] so we leave to the donut shop, where we get ripped off on soda and dry donuts and play MASH. matt is continuing to play his REALLY annoying ringtones and he'd been doing it all day when I really just wanted his phone to shut up so we could all talk. anyway, we play MASH and have a hilarous good time. then it's time to wrap it up and go home, so we walk krystle to the busstop and talk some more. I didn't want krystle to go home. I wanted matt to go home. as we are waiting for the bus, it's kinda late, so I get out my bus book to check times and I thought matt didn't see me doing that so he reached inside my folder and struggled to get someting out of it, and I said, "hey hey hey HEY!" and he stopped grabbing my stuff and said, "FINE. keep your book [it was a book I'd asked him to return his first day at RCC riverside]. charge up your fines. pay more. I don't care." and I said, "OH. I thought you were trying to grab my bus book and it was already in my hand" but he didn't yield, so I got even more pissed off at him then. but HOLDING IT ALL IN, like someone who has to pee really bad, I hug krystle and we say goodbye to her.
I'm sorry, you don't just grab stuff out of my neatly organized folder while it's closed and not tell me what you're grabbing. that's rude [as matt normally is] and he could have just reminded me to give it to him, and I would have handed it to him. he just pissed me off so bad that day and he finished it off with that bitchy statement. I don't know If I'll ever agree to hang out with him again. I mean he doesn't seem affected by it, he seems to think we all had a great time and wants me to go someplace with him on friday and maybe it's just me who's a bitchy little asshole. I don't think that's it though, I think he's really just unaware that he is this aggravating. I'm also debating whether I should tell krystle this, since it is 'shit-talking' on him. I think I won't, knowing my past history with krystle.
ALRIGHT! that evening is taken care of. Um...before that, 2 days before that I mean, I went to my friend emily's house and tutored her in math. but surprise surprise, where emily is, anthony whitacre is too [he's living with them] but I like him. he's awesome. lol he gave emily and I shoulder massages as I was helping her with math. then we had dinner, and emily's mom made salmon. I'm not sure whethere I like it or not; it has such a unique taste. I would eat it again though. then I call prison [home] and ask if it is okay to stay and watch a movie with them, and my dad says yes. so emily, anthony, and I all sit on the couch and watch the 5th harry potter movie and make jokes. but anthony can't keep his hands off me and touched and rubbed me throughout the entire movie. I mean I didn't protest because WELL it felt good! hahaha, but at the SAME time it made me just a little uncomfy. BUT I still had a good time just spending time with them as I know we're all going to part ways soon. :(
any other news? oh yeah, lawrence is still my fave among those I've went out with, but unfortunately like many others, he was hung over on new year's day and couldn't hang out with me :( I'm not stressing though. he didn't call me back that day, but I've changed about my possessiveness of people. I've only went out with him twice and if he never calls me back, at least I had two AWESOME hamburgers that I didn't have to pay for. But I'm not jumping to conclusions yet.
have you SEEN this guy though? I swear he's my husband too [along with carl's jr. hamburgers]
--yeah, I can't believe he liked me either.
what also occurred to me is that - I know this whole dating game is not original to ME and me only. he's probably doing the same thing with others and deciding who's best for him. so that's why I make sure I don't get attached quickly. look up nevo comma matt
speaking of him, he tried I-Ming me only a few days ago. here's proof that I'm not making it up lol
I Didn't respond. I think have all that I need to get on with my life, including his ex [LOL!] who just recently called me 'stud.'
remember jesse from yesteryears and my last JOURNAL?
he contacted me again :)
but I've run out of time! you'll have to wait for the next episode ;)
Yesterday, Krystle and local Matt came with me to take care of getting the books for school. We went, and didn't find much. the girl who scanned my book for check out told me that I didn't need it for my particular professor, who only uses lecture notes for his class. I didn't buy it. I figured that if he decides to use the book this semester I'd excuse myself and go buy it. lol
and about the calculus book, they want 140 dollars..for a USED one. yeah F-ing right, like I'm really going to pay that much when I found it on amazon for 100. so I walked out of there with nothing. NOW about the outing with matt and krystle. it started off well. we began at starburcks [lol @ krystle] and I was hoping that matt and krystle would get along - matt's rather bitchy around new people and krystle is very sensitive, like me, so I was wondering what would happen. I was really nervous about it at first because krystle was busting all these jokes and matt seemed to be almost rolling his eyes at her [well toward me so she couldn't see] and all she is doing is trying to be sociable and ease the tension [she's really good at that] so I was upset at that. but after we cracked all these jokes about my ex-husband burger king and how he was making the fry smell stronger to lure me back in and actually pay $1.99 for his stupid double. We went and teased him by going in, and only checking my BALANCE on my debit card [which I Was pleased with] and then loudly proclaiming how much of that money I was going to spend at CARL'S JR. ... lol!
after that matt seemed to warm up to her a little more. I Was pleased with that. but let it be added that here I began to get resentful towards matt for just being there. I wasn't pleased with his behavior in the beginning; his unwillingness to get along with one of my best friends.
However we hop on the bus to norco, and after I encounter this really strange computer nerd who laughs a little too loud at jokes that aren't that funny, Matt tells me as we get off the bus, "I know why you like her" and "lol here is where we really connected" and those are just matt things to say. so I didn't mind him then and then we encounter the fiasco at the bookstore I described earlier. we left and then ate at carl's jr. It was SO good. afterwards we walked back to the spectrum where we started and used the restroom at one of the stores [I know you wanted to know that] and decided to hang out at Kmart - lol. well there is nothing else to do in riverside! Anyway, this is where it jets downhill with matt again. krystle is hi-larious as usual, and it's what I love about her. but then in kmart as krystle proceeded to check to see if she could get credit there, matt made some comment that irritated me as he invited me somewhere with his parents. I know I should be talking more about the good stuff that was said but I also mentioned that early on in this little adventure that I grew to resent his presence and found myself wanting more 1 on 1 time with krystle. Anyway, he talks about how cold it is where we're going [if I want to go that is] and then makes this comment about my weight [yet AGAIN!].
he says, by the way, you'll be needing something like this *grabs something warm* because *pauses, takes a scan of me up and down with his eyes* you have NOTHING on you. literally nothing.---- And then when I looked up at him and then away, and didn't say anything, he realized what he had done and immediately said 'I'm sorry!' and I said 'oh that's okay, you just keep fucking up anyway.' and then after about 5 mins of searching for krystle he says 'I'm sorry' again but I Say 'matt you know I'm sensitive about this particular subject, so just stay away from it.' and he says ok. but due to matt's INsensitive nature, I know that will not be possible. So then he loses points with me there too. Krystle discovers she can't get credit at Kmart because she doesn't have a credit card [lol] so we leave to the donut shop, where we get ripped off on soda and dry donuts and play MASH. matt is continuing to play his REALLY annoying ringtones and he'd been doing it all day when I really just wanted his phone to shut up so we could all talk. anyway, we play MASH and have a hilarous good time. then it's time to wrap it up and go home, so we walk krystle to the busstop and talk some more. I didn't want krystle to go home. I wanted matt to go home. as we are waiting for the bus, it's kinda late, so I get out my bus book to check times and I thought matt didn't see me doing that so he reached inside my folder and struggled to get someting out of it, and I said, "hey hey hey HEY!" and he stopped grabbing my stuff and said, "FINE. keep your book [it was a book I'd asked him to return his first day at RCC riverside]. charge up your fines. pay more. I don't care." and I said, "OH. I thought you were trying to grab my bus book and it was already in my hand" but he didn't yield, so I got even more pissed off at him then. but HOLDING IT ALL IN, like someone who has to pee really bad, I hug krystle and we say goodbye to her.
I'm sorry, you don't just grab stuff out of my neatly organized folder while it's closed and not tell me what you're grabbing. that's rude [as matt normally is] and he could have just reminded me to give it to him, and I would have handed it to him. he just pissed me off so bad that day and he finished it off with that bitchy statement. I don't know If I'll ever agree to hang out with him again. I mean he doesn't seem affected by it, he seems to think we all had a great time and wants me to go someplace with him on friday and maybe it's just me who's a bitchy little asshole. I don't think that's it though, I think he's really just unaware that he is this aggravating. I'm also debating whether I should tell krystle this, since it is 'shit-talking' on him. I think I won't, knowing my past history with krystle.
ALRIGHT! that evening is taken care of. Um...before that, 2 days before that I mean, I went to my friend emily's house and tutored her in math. but surprise surprise, where emily is, anthony whitacre is too [he's living with them] but I like him. he's awesome. lol he gave emily and I shoulder massages as I was helping her with math. then we had dinner, and emily's mom made salmon. I'm not sure whethere I like it or not; it has such a unique taste. I would eat it again though. then I call prison [home] and ask if it is okay to stay and watch a movie with them, and my dad says yes. so emily, anthony, and I all sit on the couch and watch the 5th harry potter movie and make jokes. but anthony can't keep his hands off me and touched and rubbed me throughout the entire movie. I mean I didn't protest because WELL it felt good! hahaha, but at the SAME time it made me just a little uncomfy. BUT I still had a good time just spending time with them as I know we're all going to part ways soon. :(
any other news? oh yeah, lawrence is still my fave among those I've went out with, but unfortunately like many others, he was hung over on new year's day and couldn't hang out with me :( I'm not stressing though. he didn't call me back that day, but I've changed about my possessiveness of people. I've only went out with him twice and if he never calls me back, at least I had two AWESOME hamburgers that I didn't have to pay for. But I'm not jumping to conclusions yet.
have you SEEN this guy though? I swear he's my husband too [along with carl's jr. hamburgers]
--yeah, I can't believe he liked me either.
what also occurred to me is that - I know this whole dating game is not original to ME and me only. he's probably doing the same thing with others and deciding who's best for him. so that's why I make sure I don't get attached quickly. look up nevo comma matt
speaking of him, he tried I-Ming me only a few days ago. here's proof that I'm not making it up lol
I Didn't respond. I think have all that I need to get on with my life, including his ex [LOL!] who just recently called me 'stud.'
remember jesse from yesteryears and my last JOURNAL?
he contacted me again :)
but I've run out of time! you'll have to wait for the next episode ;)