Phish <3
I think I'm the only one that fully understands the love we had.
Opperative word = HAD.
((But you understand too.))
It means a lot to me that you havent seen/kissed/slept with, etc ANYONE ELSE since we broke up. Considering your past, I will always assumse the worst. But I trust you. And I trust that you've been "faithful" since the break-up.
As fucked up as it is... I'm still "faithful" to you too. I dont want anyone else. Anyone else is simply second best to you.
I think that's why I'm so closed off about this whole situation. Is because no one else can relate to it. Everyone else says "Move on. Why are you still waiting on something that's never going to happen? He broke up with you for a reason. Find someone better."
1) There IS no one better.
2) I'm not READY to move on.
3) For ONCE IN MY FUCKING LIFE, I know what I want, and I'm willing to wait/fight for it. He waited 8 months for me while I had a boyfriend, because he KNEW I was worth it. Why wouldnt I wait for him to figure it out?
Life is hard. Semester is almost over. 2 semesters and I'm DUNZO with EMU. Thank God.
One thing I've learned is... You cant help who you fall in love with. Love is the ONE thing in life that should never be controlled, ruled, caged... It should be free. FUCK what everyone else thinks. The reason people look down on people like me, is because they're too afraid to put themselves out there in the same way that I did. But in all honesty... The heart was made to LOVE... If you want to love with rules and expectations, then what's the point????
All I really know is... It's not time to throw in the towel. Not just yet.
Opperative word = HAD.
((But you understand too.))
It means a lot to me that you havent seen/kissed/slept with, etc ANYONE ELSE since we broke up. Considering your past, I will always assumse the worst. But I trust you. And I trust that you've been "faithful" since the break-up.
As fucked up as it is... I'm still "faithful" to you too. I dont want anyone else. Anyone else is simply second best to you.
I think that's why I'm so closed off about this whole situation. Is because no one else can relate to it. Everyone else says "Move on. Why are you still waiting on something that's never going to happen? He broke up with you for a reason. Find someone better."
1) There IS no one better.
2) I'm not READY to move on.
3) For ONCE IN MY FUCKING LIFE, I know what I want, and I'm willing to wait/fight for it. He waited 8 months for me while I had a boyfriend, because he KNEW I was worth it. Why wouldnt I wait for him to figure it out?
Life is hard. Semester is almost over. 2 semesters and I'm DUNZO with EMU. Thank God.
One thing I've learned is... You cant help who you fall in love with. Love is the ONE thing in life that should never be controlled, ruled, caged... It should be free. FUCK what everyone else thinks. The reason people look down on people like me, is because they're too afraid to put themselves out there in the same way that I did. But in all honesty... The heart was made to LOVE... If you want to love with rules and expectations, then what's the point????
All I really know is... It's not time to throw in the towel. Not just yet.