You Are Part Of Everything
I'm here. I'm alive. The worst is over.
I got a job at FYE. Hooray for money! I wont be getting many hours until Thanksgiving, but whatever. It's a job! At a record store!
School is going surprisingly well right now. My biggest concern is Accounting... For some reason, I have a hard time understanding it. Which pisses me off, because I'm really good at every other kind of math. *sigh* Oh well. If I get a C for the semester, I'll be happy.
Zachariah and I broke up the night before Halloween. Which added to the WORST HALLOWEEN EVER. I'm doing okay, hanging in there. Trying to keep busy with friends and school. Emily and I have been hanging out a lot, which has been sooooo much fun. We have random dance parties and play board games and colour pictures until like 4am.
I hope that things will work out with Zachariah and I, but I'm not going to hold my breath. I know that we will still be friends at least. I care about that boy so much, it's sick. But we need to take care of ourselves first. He's young, he doesnt know what he wants right now. I just want to love him and take care of him and share life with him. But... It is what it is. I've been trying not to worry about it too much because I cant predict the future. I think about him constantly though... Time heals everything, I just have to keep reminding myself of that. I really dont care to find anyone else. He was exactly what I want in another person. As far as I'm concerned, I would be settling for 2nd best with anyone else. Zachariah will be the one that got away =(
Ohhhh man it's late. And I dont really have anything else to say. I hope everyone is doing okay.
I got a job at FYE. Hooray for money! I wont be getting many hours until Thanksgiving, but whatever. It's a job! At a record store!
School is going surprisingly well right now. My biggest concern is Accounting... For some reason, I have a hard time understanding it. Which pisses me off, because I'm really good at every other kind of math. *sigh* Oh well. If I get a C for the semester, I'll be happy.
Zachariah and I broke up the night before Halloween. Which added to the WORST HALLOWEEN EVER. I'm doing okay, hanging in there. Trying to keep busy with friends and school. Emily and I have been hanging out a lot, which has been sooooo much fun. We have random dance parties and play board games and colour pictures until like 4am.
I hope that things will work out with Zachariah and I, but I'm not going to hold my breath. I know that we will still be friends at least. I care about that boy so much, it's sick. But we need to take care of ourselves first. He's young, he doesnt know what he wants right now. I just want to love him and take care of him and share life with him. But... It is what it is. I've been trying not to worry about it too much because I cant predict the future. I think about him constantly though... Time heals everything, I just have to keep reminding myself of that. I really dont care to find anyone else. He was exactly what I want in another person. As far as I'm concerned, I would be settling for 2nd best with anyone else. Zachariah will be the one that got away =(
Ohhhh man it's late. And I dont really have anything else to say. I hope everyone is doing okay.