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So I was bored, and still editing my way through the ficblog, and a lot of people were uploading music on ye olde flist. So I thought, hey, why not! Now my internet has sped up from 256kbps to 1mbps (AND IT TOTALLY HAS, when I downloaded the phantom of the opera original cast recording it got up to like 70kb/s) I can actually upload stuff.
And in conclusion, beneath this cut there is a lot of music that is somehow associated with various fics I have written, be it that I used it in the fic, that it inspired the fic, that I yanked the title of the fic from it or just that I had it on repeat-- and I mean, totally, on repeat for DAYS-- while I wrote it.
Band AU!X (existing in potentia)
I'm almost thankful this fic isn't written and up, because then I'd have to upload the songs that get used in it. As is, I'm only uploading one-- the one that INSPIRED it.
No, this never stops being funny.
The Backstreet Boys - As Long As You Love Me
Oh, the loneliness has always been a friend of mine, I'm leaving my life in your hands
[...] I don't care who you are, where you're from, what you did, as long as you love me
(You had to be there, but let's just say "bad Seishirou/Subaru songcall" and leave it at that.)
Illusory
The X fic I wrote... yesterday. I had Bye Bye Bye on repeat while I was writing large chunks of it. I don't even know, don't ask me.
*Nsync - Bye Bye Bye
I am doing this tonight, you're probably gonna start a fight, I know this can't be right, now baby come on
I loved you endlessly and you weren't there for me, so now it's time to leave and make it alone
I know that I can't take no more, it ain't no lie, I want to see you out that door, baby bye bye bye
Don't wanna be a fool for you, just another player in your game for two, you may hate me but it ain't no lie, baby bye bye bye
Don't really wanna make it tough, I just wanna tell you that I've had enough, might sound crazy but it ain't no lie, baby bye bye bye
According To Plan
The X fic I wrote the other day. I had a number of songs on repeat during it, but since those songs included such things as Incomplete and Everybody (Backstreet's Back)... well, you get the point. These are the two songs I had on repeat during the second last scene. If you've read it, you know the scene I mean.
Depeche Mode - In Your Room
Will you leap into your armchair or will you leave me lying here, your favourite innocence, your favourite prize, your favourite smile, your favourite slave
I'm hanging on words, living on your breath, feeling with your skin, will I always be here?
VAST - Pretty When You Cry
I didn't really love you, baby, I didn't really love you, I didn't really love you but I'm pretty when I lie
[...] If you knew how much I love you you would run away, when I treat you bad it always makes you want to stay
Lay Thee Down
DiscRP drabble. I THINK it was this one. May have been Light Of Dawn (Mirage fic). May even have been both. Anyway, there was definitely a fic and maybe fics written with this song on repeat. Good for mood.
Howie Day - Collide
The dawn is breaking, a light shining through, you're barely waking and I'm tangled up in you
Well I'm open, you're closed, where I follow you'll go; I worry that I won't see your face light up again
Even the best fall down some time, even the wrong words seem to rhyme,
Out of the doubt that fills my mind I somehow find you and I collide
Juxtapose
Kingdom Hearts fic from earlier this year. I am almost certain that this fic was written either to Hikari or Passion, probably both. So I will upload my favourite versions of both. And since that version of Hikari is instrumental, I'll... upload two versions of it.
Utada Hikaru - Hikari
(In Japanese) The future is always ahead of us, I don't know what will happen either
[...] Let's talk some more, the tomorrow you're aiming for will come, turn off the television and look only at me
New Japanese Philharmonic - Hikari (Orchestra Instrumental Version)
Utada Hikaru - Passion ~after the battle~
(In Japanese) The window opens to where the person I cannot meet a second time is,
If I remember you, the distant future keeps sparkling no matter where you are beneath the pretty blue sky
So You Wanna Be A Rock Star?
I nicked the title from this song. Really the song has no other connection with the fic-- I didn't listen to it when I was writing.
The Byrds - So You Want To Be A Rock Star
Civil War
X WiP that was going to be a Christmas fic last year and is still on my to-do list to finish, because I liked the first half but the second half didn't work with it and I had a better idea considering the request. I was playing this song on repeat while I was writing it and ended up yanking the title, too.
Guns N' Roses - Civil War
Look at your young men fighting, look at your women crying, look at your young men dying the way they've always done before
Look at the hate we're breeding, look at the fear we're feeding, look at the lives we're leading the way we've always done before
And the wars go on with brainwashed pride for the love of God and our human rights, and all these things are swept aside by bloody hands time can't deny
And are washed away by your genocide, and history hides the lies of our civil wars
[...] You can't trust freedom when it's not in your hands and everybody is fighting for their promised land
I don't need your civil war, it feeds the rich while it buries the poor
Fractured
Weiss Kreutz Christmas fic from last year. I think, for memory, that this was the fic I wrote with The Hand That Feeds on repeat to. At least ONE of the Christmas fics was, and this seems the likely suspect.
Nine Inch Nails - The Hand That Feeds
Just how deep do you believe? Will you bite the hand that feeds? Will you chew until it bleeds?
Will you get up off your knees? Are you brave enough to see? Do you wanna change it?
Domine Sancte
A Tokyo/Babylon AU set in an English monastery, written last Christmas. I used three choral songs in it, but one is actually a prayer. Here are the mp3s for the other two
Sarah Brightman - Ave Maria: Second choral song used in Domine Sancte.
(In Latin) Hail Mary, mother of God, pray for us sinners
Pray for us, pray for us sinners, now and in the hour of our death.
Sarah Brightman - Pie Jesu: The song Subaru sings at Hokuto's funeral.
(In Latin) Lamb of God, Lamb of God, Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world,
Grant them rest, grant them rest, grant them rest everlasting
Possession
X fic, late last year. Title very obviously nicked from the song, which I was also playing on repeat.
Sarah McLachlan - Possession (Piano Version)
Through this world I stumbled, so many times betrayed, trying to find an honest word to find the truth enslaved
You speak to me in riddles and you speak to me in rhymes, my body aches to breathe your breath, your words keep me alive
And I would be the one to hold you down, kiss you so hard I'll take your breath away
And after I wipe away the tears, just close your eyes dear
Broken Open
Prequel to Possession. Inspired by, written to and title yanked from:
Poe - Wild
Tell me what you've come for, moving like a hunter through my back door,
Leaving the perfume of all you adore to die nameless on my floor.
[...] What is it you adore? Won't you tell me? What would you cry for, swallow your pride for, what will you go wild for?
[...] I go wild 'cause you break me open, wild 'cause you left me here, I go wild 'cause your promises are broken, wild, don't you get it dear?
Interpretation
X fic. Inspired by the song.
Indigo Girls - Ghost
And there's not enough room in this world for my pain, signals cross and love gets lost and time passed makes it plain
Of all my demon spirits I need you the most, I'm in love with your ghost.
Distortion
Haha, fucked up Hamlet fic that Kelsey will never forgive me for. Yanked the title from a song from Phantom Of The Opera.
Phantom of the Opera (Original Cast) - Down Once More/Track Down This Murderer
Phantom: Pity comes too late, turn around and face your fate, an eternity of THIS before your eyes!
Christine: This haunted face holds no horror for me now. It's in your soul that the true distortion lies.
Push
Mirage fic from Christmas 04. I actually put the song on while I was writing the fic because the title I'd decided on was the same as the name of the song. However, it does suit Naoe very well.
Matchbox 20 - Push
She said 'I don't know why you ever would have lied to me', like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is gonna hurt you
And I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me, you couldn't stand to be near me when my face don't seem to wanna shine 'cause it's a little bit dirty
Oh well, don't just stand there saying nice things to me, 'cause I've been cheated, I've been wronged, you, you don't know me, yeah well I can't change, I won't do anything at all
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will, I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will, I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted, yeah, yeah, well I will
Viva Las Vegas
Elvis song, X fic, yanked the title.
Elvis - Viva Las Vegas
Cruel To Be Kind
Old X drabble. Title... sort of yanked? It's kind of just a saying/cliche, but anyway. The song is a lot boppier than the fic, for sure.
Letters To Cleo - Cruel To Be Kind
Letting Go
First X fic evah (in mid 2004), inspired by and written to this song.
Sarah McLachlan - Do What You Have To Do
A glowing ember burning hot and burning slow,
Deep within I'm shaken by the violence of existing for only you.
I know I can't be with you, I do what I have to do, I know I can't be with you, I do what I have to do
And I have the sense to recognise that I don't know how to let you go.
Silence
FF7 fic from Christmas 03. For memory I put on the song after I'd chosen the title, but hey.
Sarah McLachlan w/ Delirium - Silence
Heaven holds a sense of wonder and I wanted to believe
That I'd get caught up when the rage in me subsides
In this white wave, I am sinking in this silence
In this white wave, in this silence, I believe
I have seen you in this white wave, you are silent
You are breathing, in this white wave I am free
Leaving Angel of Music and Bittersweet Symphony until later, because they have so many songs in them.
HAR FINALLY DONE. In other news I had a hypo of 1.5 today which is the lowest I've been yet, spoke to Tristan on the phone, and have spent a lot of time procrastinating from doing... well, anything, really. Mostly writing.
Now I'm going to lie around doing nothing some more.
I should really catch up my LJ comments. *muses*
And in conclusion, beneath this cut there is a lot of music that is somehow associated with various fics I have written, be it that I used it in the fic, that it inspired the fic, that I yanked the title of the fic from it or just that I had it on repeat-- and I mean, totally, on repeat for DAYS-- while I wrote it.
Band AU!X (existing in potentia)
I'm almost thankful this fic isn't written and up, because then I'd have to upload the songs that get used in it. As is, I'm only uploading one-- the one that INSPIRED it.
No, this never stops being funny.
The Backstreet Boys - As Long As You Love Me
Oh, the loneliness has always been a friend of mine, I'm leaving my life in your hands
[...] I don't care who you are, where you're from, what you did, as long as you love me
(You had to be there, but let's just say "bad Seishirou/Subaru songcall" and leave it at that.)
Illusory
The X fic I wrote... yesterday. I had Bye Bye Bye on repeat while I was writing large chunks of it. I don't even know, don't ask me.
*Nsync - Bye Bye Bye
I am doing this tonight, you're probably gonna start a fight, I know this can't be right, now baby come on
I loved you endlessly and you weren't there for me, so now it's time to leave and make it alone
I know that I can't take no more, it ain't no lie, I want to see you out that door, baby bye bye bye
Don't wanna be a fool for you, just another player in your game for two, you may hate me but it ain't no lie, baby bye bye bye
Don't really wanna make it tough, I just wanna tell you that I've had enough, might sound crazy but it ain't no lie, baby bye bye bye
According To Plan
The X fic I wrote the other day. I had a number of songs on repeat during it, but since those songs included such things as Incomplete and Everybody (Backstreet's Back)... well, you get the point. These are the two songs I had on repeat during the second last scene. If you've read it, you know the scene I mean.
Depeche Mode - In Your Room
Will you leap into your armchair or will you leave me lying here, your favourite innocence, your favourite prize, your favourite smile, your favourite slave
I'm hanging on words, living on your breath, feeling with your skin, will I always be here?
VAST - Pretty When You Cry
I didn't really love you, baby, I didn't really love you, I didn't really love you but I'm pretty when I lie
[...] If you knew how much I love you you would run away, when I treat you bad it always makes you want to stay
Lay Thee Down
DiscRP drabble. I THINK it was this one. May have been Light Of Dawn (Mirage fic). May even have been both. Anyway, there was definitely a fic and maybe fics written with this song on repeat. Good for mood.
Howie Day - Collide
The dawn is breaking, a light shining through, you're barely waking and I'm tangled up in you
Well I'm open, you're closed, where I follow you'll go; I worry that I won't see your face light up again
Even the best fall down some time, even the wrong words seem to rhyme,
Out of the doubt that fills my mind I somehow find you and I collide
Juxtapose
Kingdom Hearts fic from earlier this year. I am almost certain that this fic was written either to Hikari or Passion, probably both. So I will upload my favourite versions of both. And since that version of Hikari is instrumental, I'll... upload two versions of it.
Utada Hikaru - Hikari
(In Japanese) The future is always ahead of us, I don't know what will happen either
[...] Let's talk some more, the tomorrow you're aiming for will come, turn off the television and look only at me
New Japanese Philharmonic - Hikari (Orchestra Instrumental Version)
Utada Hikaru - Passion ~after the battle~
(In Japanese) The window opens to where the person I cannot meet a second time is,
If I remember you, the distant future keeps sparkling no matter where you are beneath the pretty blue sky
So You Wanna Be A Rock Star?
I nicked the title from this song. Really the song has no other connection with the fic-- I didn't listen to it when I was writing.
The Byrds - So You Want To Be A Rock Star
Civil War
X WiP that was going to be a Christmas fic last year and is still on my to-do list to finish, because I liked the first half but the second half didn't work with it and I had a better idea considering the request. I was playing this song on repeat while I was writing it and ended up yanking the title, too.
Guns N' Roses - Civil War
Look at your young men fighting, look at your women crying, look at your young men dying the way they've always done before
Look at the hate we're breeding, look at the fear we're feeding, look at the lives we're leading the way we've always done before
And the wars go on with brainwashed pride for the love of God and our human rights, and all these things are swept aside by bloody hands time can't deny
And are washed away by your genocide, and history hides the lies of our civil wars
[...] You can't trust freedom when it's not in your hands and everybody is fighting for their promised land
I don't need your civil war, it feeds the rich while it buries the poor
Fractured
Weiss Kreutz Christmas fic from last year. I think, for memory, that this was the fic I wrote with The Hand That Feeds on repeat to. At least ONE of the Christmas fics was, and this seems the likely suspect.
Nine Inch Nails - The Hand That Feeds
Just how deep do you believe? Will you bite the hand that feeds? Will you chew until it bleeds?
Will you get up off your knees? Are you brave enough to see? Do you wanna change it?
Domine Sancte
A Tokyo/Babylon AU set in an English monastery, written last Christmas. I used three choral songs in it, but one is actually a prayer. Here are the mp3s for the other two
Sarah Brightman - Ave Maria: Second choral song used in Domine Sancte.
(In Latin) Hail Mary, mother of God, pray for us sinners
Pray for us, pray for us sinners, now and in the hour of our death.
Sarah Brightman - Pie Jesu: The song Subaru sings at Hokuto's funeral.
(In Latin) Lamb of God, Lamb of God, Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world,
Grant them rest, grant them rest, grant them rest everlasting
Possession
X fic, late last year. Title very obviously nicked from the song, which I was also playing on repeat.
Sarah McLachlan - Possession (Piano Version)
Through this world I stumbled, so many times betrayed, trying to find an honest word to find the truth enslaved
You speak to me in riddles and you speak to me in rhymes, my body aches to breathe your breath, your words keep me alive
And I would be the one to hold you down, kiss you so hard I'll take your breath away
And after I wipe away the tears, just close your eyes dear
Broken Open
Prequel to Possession. Inspired by, written to and title yanked from:
Poe - Wild
Tell me what you've come for, moving like a hunter through my back door,
Leaving the perfume of all you adore to die nameless on my floor.
[...] What is it you adore? Won't you tell me? What would you cry for, swallow your pride for, what will you go wild for?
[...] I go wild 'cause you break me open, wild 'cause you left me here, I go wild 'cause your promises are broken, wild, don't you get it dear?
Interpretation
X fic. Inspired by the song.
Indigo Girls - Ghost
And there's not enough room in this world for my pain, signals cross and love gets lost and time passed makes it plain
Of all my demon spirits I need you the most, I'm in love with your ghost.
Distortion
Haha, fucked up Hamlet fic that Kelsey will never forgive me for. Yanked the title from a song from Phantom Of The Opera.
Phantom of the Opera (Original Cast) - Down Once More/Track Down This Murderer
Phantom: Pity comes too late, turn around and face your fate, an eternity of THIS before your eyes!
Christine: This haunted face holds no horror for me now. It's in your soul that the true distortion lies.
Push
Mirage fic from Christmas 04. I actually put the song on while I was writing the fic because the title I'd decided on was the same as the name of the song. However, it does suit Naoe very well.
Matchbox 20 - Push
She said 'I don't know why you ever would have lied to me', like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is gonna hurt you
And I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me, you couldn't stand to be near me when my face don't seem to wanna shine 'cause it's a little bit dirty
Oh well, don't just stand there saying nice things to me, 'cause I've been cheated, I've been wronged, you, you don't know me, yeah well I can't change, I won't do anything at all
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will, I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will, I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted, yeah, yeah, well I will
Viva Las Vegas
Elvis song, X fic, yanked the title.
Elvis - Viva Las Vegas
Cruel To Be Kind
Old X drabble. Title... sort of yanked? It's kind of just a saying/cliche, but anyway. The song is a lot boppier than the fic, for sure.
Letters To Cleo - Cruel To Be Kind
Letting Go
First X fic evah (in mid 2004), inspired by and written to this song.
Sarah McLachlan - Do What You Have To Do
A glowing ember burning hot and burning slow,
Deep within I'm shaken by the violence of existing for only you.
I know I can't be with you, I do what I have to do, I know I can't be with you, I do what I have to do
And I have the sense to recognise that I don't know how to let you go.
Silence
FF7 fic from Christmas 03. For memory I put on the song after I'd chosen the title, but hey.
Sarah McLachlan w/ Delirium - Silence
Heaven holds a sense of wonder and I wanted to believe
That I'd get caught up when the rage in me subsides
In this white wave, I am sinking in this silence
In this white wave, in this silence, I believe
I have seen you in this white wave, you are silent
You are breathing, in this white wave I am free
Leaving Angel of Music and Bittersweet Symphony until later, because they have so many songs in them.
HAR FINALLY DONE. In other news I had a hypo of 1.5 today which is the lowest I've been yet, spoke to Tristan on the phone, and have spent a lot of time procrastinating from doing... well, anything, really. Mostly writing.
Now I'm going to lie around doing nothing some more.
I should really catch up my LJ comments. *muses*