emoz
You would think that with the holiday and all I'd be cheerful and happy, right? Wrong.
I feel like crap, unhappy and generally depressed. I've spent the last two weeks crying at the drop of a hat almost. I've yelled and screamed and acted like a fool to two of my best friends... and just when I think I have it solved, I end up back at freaking square one.
I spent the last two days with the want or need to burst into tears. I need someone to talk sense into me or smack me upside the head and tell me to stop this nonsense. I'm not mad at anyone, just everything seems like a big deal to me right now and it shouldn't. Be it PMS or anything else, I have no idea... I just don't do well in some situations.
I get jealous, I get possessive and sometimes get down right crazy. If I don't get this out somewhere, I'm going to explode.
And here's the kicker... it's mostly over RP. That's what's stupid. So what will make me happy? If I got what I wanted, I'd be the only one happy and everyone else would be miserable. It's not fair to the others involved when it's MY problem. So the only other option I can see is to withdraw, at least for a time and see what happens. The thing is, I may say this here but do something else entirely different.
Or maybe I'm just too old for this stuff anymore? What ever it is, I wish it would stop so I can be happier and not feel like ass all the time. -_-
I feel like crap, unhappy and generally depressed. I've spent the last two weeks crying at the drop of a hat almost. I've yelled and screamed and acted like a fool to two of my best friends... and just when I think I have it solved, I end up back at freaking square one.
I spent the last two days with the want or need to burst into tears. I need someone to talk sense into me or smack me upside the head and tell me to stop this nonsense. I'm not mad at anyone, just everything seems like a big deal to me right now and it shouldn't. Be it PMS or anything else, I have no idea... I just don't do well in some situations.
I get jealous, I get possessive and sometimes get down right crazy. If I don't get this out somewhere, I'm going to explode.
And here's the kicker... it's mostly over RP. That's what's stupid. So what will make me happy? If I got what I wanted, I'd be the only one happy and everyone else would be miserable. It's not fair to the others involved when it's MY problem. So the only other option I can see is to withdraw, at least for a time and see what happens. The thing is, I may say this here but do something else entirely different.
Or maybe I'm just too old for this stuff anymore? What ever it is, I wish it would stop so I can be happier and not feel like ass all the time. -_-