Everyone is human.
Sometimes I wish that I could just tell people things when I feel them. Like when I get mad at someone I wish I could just tell them “Hey! You pissed me off and I’m really angry at you.” But I can’t. It’s just not the type of person that I am. When someone hurts my feelings I just take it and push it down like always. My therapist once told me that’s not good for you to do but if that’s the way you’re programmed then it’s pretty damn impossible to change yourself over night. 5 years after trying to off myself I’m doing a lot better than I was. Even better than I was doing around this time last year. I won’t lie. I still get depressed and yeah there are days when all I do is lie in bed and cry. Still I wouldn’t trade it for anything. It’s made me the person I am today and I’m equipped to deal with it better than I was 5 years ago. I won’t sink that low again, that I know.