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Gettin down to the wire now. Hope b.s. is almost done. Finally shut down to where I had to get serious help. It rebooted my soul a bit...but didnt really solve anything. My hubby and I need to get a life while we still can. Have slight cognitive problems and hoping it doesnt mean anything worse later. I think of it but cant live with anymore fear than I already have. Grateful for what I have while I have it. Paranoia is not gone though. But I can deal with it so far. I just ask for one more (please goddess...decent... year). For me. Whatever happens after that will either be icing on the cake or...well...I dunno. I have fought so hard for good things in my life. Those with problems similar to mine can understand why. And I am amazed at the how. I wish I couldve been a better person in this life and not let my baggage define who I became. I hope all of you can beat your past...and be way better and happier than u ever imagined. Hopefully you know who u are. Hugs. Even those who have hurt me. I understand now. I get it. I cant forgive and forget. But I get it now.