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so i have no idea why eliza is ignoring me, and my emails, and why her phone is NEVER on, or she has changed numbers without telling me... or something.. and i dont know why she doesnt talk to me on AIM. Very confused. Maybe this is one of those things that I should know whats going on, but ive just lost the plot.
back home in johannesburg, cause im having a nervous breakdown. Im going to see a psychiatrist tomorrow... maybe he can give me something to make me sleep considering i actually havent slept in about a week. spend my time thinking and crying, and working (making a lot of money, but its not making me happy, let me tell you). wonder what s/he will say to me.
"Youre clinically off your rocker.... 2 fries short of a happy meal, youve missed the boat, youve lost the plot, youre cooked. You might as well have taken acid every day of your life, cause at least it would have been fun getting to this point."
and i write finals in a week. then freshman year will be over. Then a month on camp, then 2 weeks in cape town. then back to joburg to have my wosdom teeth out. then back to the box that is grahamstown.
things are shit right now.... but life's a shit deal. and i hate sex, and i hate men.. they make me want to vomit.
and eliza just started talking to me.... im excited.
back home in johannesburg, cause im having a nervous breakdown. Im going to see a psychiatrist tomorrow... maybe he can give me something to make me sleep considering i actually havent slept in about a week. spend my time thinking and crying, and working (making a lot of money, but its not making me happy, let me tell you). wonder what s/he will say to me.
"Youre clinically off your rocker.... 2 fries short of a happy meal, youve missed the boat, youve lost the plot, youre cooked. You might as well have taken acid every day of your life, cause at least it would have been fun getting to this point."
and i write finals in a week. then freshman year will be over. Then a month on camp, then 2 weeks in cape town. then back to joburg to have my wosdom teeth out. then back to the box that is grahamstown.
things are shit right now.... but life's a shit deal. and i hate sex, and i hate men.. they make me want to vomit.
and eliza just started talking to me.... im excited.