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I'm so confused.
I don't know what to think or who i am anymore. its completely weirding me out.
I used to be completely nice to the popular-annoying-stupid girls in my math class or whatever class i'm in.
but now when theyre just being stupid or mean and expect me to follow them around or laugh with them AT MY OWN FRIENDS, i'm like, i dont NEED you as a friend! i REALLY DONT! i've got better ones than YOU, as a matter of fact.
and i was over him. i almost was. but now i see a mop of blonde hair and my stomach does backflips. and sometimes its not even him. i dont know.
and sometimes, even when we're a hundred yards away from each other, i see him out of the corner of my eye and it either makes me really sad or i get that burst of feeling like anxiety and happiness and melancholy weirdness all at once.
and sometimes its like i glance at him and then i feel him looking back at me. maybe i'm imagining it, but maybe i'm not.
i'm not sure what to do or who to talk to, because i know he's no good. and my friends want me to have the best, just like i want them to have. and they think he's complete bull. which he kind of is.
but i still need to figure out whats going on inside my head.
I don't know what to think or who i am anymore. its completely weirding me out.
I used to be completely nice to the popular-annoying-stupid girls in my math class or whatever class i'm in.
but now when theyre just being stupid or mean and expect me to follow them around or laugh with them AT MY OWN FRIENDS, i'm like, i dont NEED you as a friend! i REALLY DONT! i've got better ones than YOU, as a matter of fact.
and i was over him. i almost was. but now i see a mop of blonde hair and my stomach does backflips. and sometimes its not even him. i dont know.
and sometimes, even when we're a hundred yards away from each other, i see him out of the corner of my eye and it either makes me really sad or i get that burst of feeling like anxiety and happiness and melancholy weirdness all at once.
and sometimes its like i glance at him and then i feel him looking back at me. maybe i'm imagining it, but maybe i'm not.
i'm not sure what to do or who to talk to, because i know he's no good. and my friends want me to have the best, just like i want them to have. and they think he's complete bull. which he kind of is.
but i still need to figure out whats going on inside my head.