So Close Now....I can see the end
God,1 week till the year ends. 5 days till i turn 21.
What a MASSIVE year, filled with heartache, laughter, joy, pain, heartbreak, tears, smiles, love, realtionships, friends, success, failure, death and lost love.
It has been a struggle, I have at times, wanted to give up, with so many things that had gone wrong in a short period of time.
I lost someone I loved, somehow, I don't think I will ever figure out, two friends died. I failed subjects, MacMs went downhill, I lost friendships, my illness took a hold and wouldn't let go.
To top it off two surgeries this year. The first with the support of an amazing person, was somewhat easier. The second more difficult. Recently, as I began to get back on my feet, I developed an infection in my ankle, that ravaged my body, I was collapsing and unable to eat/drink or get up it was about 3 days of nausea, blackouts, dizzy spells, cold sweats and huge amounts of pain.
Thankfully I came out of it ok, Im not too well yet, but I can sit up again and slowly move around.
I am just waiting to start again. I began last week to make ammends with those who I believed I had to. I want to start off next year as well as I can, I mean this year started off amazing. I had an amazing boyfriend, but then things went wrong, in all aspects of my life not just that and it couldn't be helped and I guess somethings are just not meant to be, and as you go through life you learn that. 'Sometimes in our lives we are only meant to love someone or something for little while'
As someone said to me recently, 'life goes on with our without or permission'. I totally agree, I think I only began to learn that recently.
I have fond memories of this year. That I will NEVER deny. The most amazing moments of my life happened this year, but also some of the hardest I have yet experienced.
There are people who touched my life this year who I will love till the day I die, there are things I regret and things I would never change, there are things i will never forget and things I will never want to look back on.
It has been a massive year. I pray every night to be stronger for next year to face the challenges that await me.
What a MASSIVE year, filled with heartache, laughter, joy, pain, heartbreak, tears, smiles, love, realtionships, friends, success, failure, death and lost love.
It has been a struggle, I have at times, wanted to give up, with so many things that had gone wrong in a short period of time.
I lost someone I loved, somehow, I don't think I will ever figure out, two friends died. I failed subjects, MacMs went downhill, I lost friendships, my illness took a hold and wouldn't let go.
To top it off two surgeries this year. The first with the support of an amazing person, was somewhat easier. The second more difficult. Recently, as I began to get back on my feet, I developed an infection in my ankle, that ravaged my body, I was collapsing and unable to eat/drink or get up it was about 3 days of nausea, blackouts, dizzy spells, cold sweats and huge amounts of pain.
Thankfully I came out of it ok, Im not too well yet, but I can sit up again and slowly move around.
I am just waiting to start again. I began last week to make ammends with those who I believed I had to. I want to start off next year as well as I can, I mean this year started off amazing. I had an amazing boyfriend, but then things went wrong, in all aspects of my life not just that and it couldn't be helped and I guess somethings are just not meant to be, and as you go through life you learn that. 'Sometimes in our lives we are only meant to love someone or something for little while'
As someone said to me recently, 'life goes on with our without or permission'. I totally agree, I think I only began to learn that recently.
I have fond memories of this year. That I will NEVER deny. The most amazing moments of my life happened this year, but also some of the hardest I have yet experienced.
There are people who touched my life this year who I will love till the day I die, there are things I regret and things I would never change, there are things i will never forget and things I will never want to look back on.
It has been a massive year. I pray every night to be stronger for next year to face the challenges that await me.