2014
Its trying so hard to be different than 2013 already.
2013 started with my hours getting cut at work and me breaking my arm due to my motor scooter accident.
2014 is starting with a new job, 40 hours-full time, higher pay, and I already filed my taxes which is getting me my biggest refund ever.
All I can think about is how soon is too soon to ask my new job for 3 weeks unpaid time off so I can go to Japan?
and that makes me want to cry. Because its been almost 3 years since I left. 3 years of struggling to make ends meet. 3 years since seeing a people I care about. Now that it seems in reach, I'm absolutely terrified.
What if I end up losing this new job? Just, what if something comes up to knock me down after I finally feel like I have both feet solidly on the ground for the first time in 3 years?
With the way 2013 was, where as soon as I fixed one problem, something else came up, I'm frightened something is lurking around the corner. and if I spend this money on myself, the moment I do, I'll be thrust back down to counting pennies.
I'm just....UGH
2013 started with my hours getting cut at work and me breaking my arm due to my motor scooter accident.
2014 is starting with a new job, 40 hours-full time, higher pay, and I already filed my taxes which is getting me my biggest refund ever.
All I can think about is how soon is too soon to ask my new job for 3 weeks unpaid time off so I can go to Japan?
and that makes me want to cry. Because its been almost 3 years since I left. 3 years of struggling to make ends meet. 3 years since seeing a people I care about. Now that it seems in reach, I'm absolutely terrified.
What if I end up losing this new job? Just, what if something comes up to knock me down after I finally feel like I have both feet solidly on the ground for the first time in 3 years?
With the way 2013 was, where as soon as I fixed one problem, something else came up, I'm frightened something is lurking around the corner. and if I spend this money on myself, the moment I do, I'll be thrust back down to counting pennies.
I'm just....UGH