its 10/25/12.. "restoring" data
That's what Ive been saying for a lil while now. ANd that I have nothing to look forward too. Absolutely nothing.
FIrst off I'm tired of everyone asking me when I'm getting married n having kids. I wanna punch them in their face cause it's insulting me. Because if I'm qulaified in their eyes as a other and a wife then why doesnt Leron see it? Because Learon deals with my bullshit n sees that I can't fulfill his desire to be the woman of his dreams. I don;'t have it in me. I'm down n out. I'm a piece of shit in my eyes. I'm gonna be 30 and I havent accomplished my desire goals. I hate everything n everyone. Im not happy. And Im not gonna be happy in a very long time. For what? What material thing in this world would make me happy? what event can take place that can make me the happiest? Nothing but what I intended before 30.And I have to live with it. forever until it happens after 30. My debt will always be there. My unaccomplished goals will always be there. And now I'm lost. Where do I go from here. I have an idea... I passed that class I took in La Guardia. Now it's the matter of taking classes over again to get into this stupid nursing program which is gonna hold me back another year. I need A's to get in... ugh. I'm already discouraged.
FIrst off I'm tired of everyone asking me when I'm getting married n having kids. I wanna punch them in their face cause it's insulting me. Because if I'm qulaified in their eyes as a other and a wife then why doesnt Leron see it? Because Learon deals with my bullshit n sees that I can't fulfill his desire to be the woman of his dreams. I don;'t have it in me. I'm down n out. I'm a piece of shit in my eyes. I'm gonna be 30 and I havent accomplished my desire goals. I hate everything n everyone. Im not happy. And Im not gonna be happy in a very long time. For what? What material thing in this world would make me happy? what event can take place that can make me the happiest? Nothing but what I intended before 30.And I have to live with it. forever until it happens after 30. My debt will always be there. My unaccomplished goals will always be there. And now I'm lost. Where do I go from here. I have an idea... I passed that class I took in La Guardia. Now it's the matter of taking classes over again to get into this stupid nursing program which is gonna hold me back another year. I need A's to get in... ugh. I'm already discouraged.