Participation
I suppose that I should be happy right now. I have friends that talk to me, make jokes, laugh, talk, console me, and generally have a good time. Only one thing that I wish would change, and it's incredibly selfish.
Joining in.
Read that again. You'll get it then.
It's entirely my fault as well I suppose. I stopped doing anything on Divi when people I'm friends with now went forth and did plot, had fun, did shit, make IC connections. I came back in much later, and held back, because I was afraid of being rejected or something. I don't even know why I don't talk to people online like I might have otherwise. Afraid of what? That they'll turn me down over the internet? That I'll annoy them? Something like that. So I kept within my real life group of friends. By that time it was only Centrus. And I did solos. So as a result I have an evil little emoish backstory that I don't know how I got approved, and Takua knows nobody except for Centrus.
Pity now, because all I want now is to know what people are talking about, and to get in on it. No have interactions with other people other than the awkward first one's that aren't all that great, because neither character knows the other at all. So now of course I want in on the fun, in on the plot that I missed out on earlier. Well...that's all well and good right? But I think I ask about backstory and such so often that I have the very distinct feeling that I'm incredibly irritating. I'm probably not, but I feel that way. So of course I feel left out when I'm left in the dust by people talking about things that I have no idea about. Of course I want in on whatever it is, in on participation with characters that is far more than I have now. I want to have fun with friends, which isn't a bad thing. Being greedy about it and wanting all of the backstory and wanting deeper interaction is.
I suppose that the only way to fix that is through lots of quests together with my friends. So we'll try that one out. The more the merrier, even if I don't get anything out of it, and it's just plot. Plot is a greater reward than anything else.
Except for my Merrows summon. Level 28 bitches, and I want that wand sooooo badly.
Joining in.
Read that again. You'll get it then.
It's entirely my fault as well I suppose. I stopped doing anything on Divi when people I'm friends with now went forth and did plot, had fun, did shit, make IC connections. I came back in much later, and held back, because I was afraid of being rejected or something. I don't even know why I don't talk to people online like I might have otherwise. Afraid of what? That they'll turn me down over the internet? That I'll annoy them? Something like that. So I kept within my real life group of friends. By that time it was only Centrus. And I did solos. So as a result I have an evil little emoish backstory that I don't know how I got approved, and Takua knows nobody except for Centrus.
Pity now, because all I want now is to know what people are talking about, and to get in on it. No have interactions with other people other than the awkward first one's that aren't all that great, because neither character knows the other at all. So now of course I want in on the fun, in on the plot that I missed out on earlier. Well...that's all well and good right? But I think I ask about backstory and such so often that I have the very distinct feeling that I'm incredibly irritating. I'm probably not, but I feel that way. So of course I feel left out when I'm left in the dust by people talking about things that I have no idea about. Of course I want in on whatever it is, in on participation with characters that is far more than I have now. I want to have fun with friends, which isn't a bad thing. Being greedy about it and wanting all of the backstory and wanting deeper interaction is.
I suppose that the only way to fix that is through lots of quests together with my friends. So we'll try that one out. The more the merrier, even if I don't get anything out of it, and it's just plot. Plot is a greater reward than anything else.
Except for my Merrows summon. Level 28 bitches, and I want that wand sooooo badly.