Something I've noticed
I'm a person who likes to get out and be active and productive and have fun. I would rather spend my time having fun and being social. Also I enjoy working hard and getting things done. I enjoy down time like everyone else just not as often as everyone else. A day or two alone relaxing at home is enough for me and by day three I'm itching to get out. Most people like a balance of going out and spending time alone and some people prefer more alone time and feel like going out and socializing less. I haven't met anyone else that is an social and active as I am and its been hard. In the past people have accused me of being clingy and needy because of the way I am. Friends have completely phased me out because of it.
I try not to depend too much on my friends for going out and having fun. I don't usually have a huge handful of friends. There's nothing wrong with that but that does mean that occasionally my few friends might feel pressured to hang out with me all the time when they don't want to. I never ever try to make them feel that way on purpose. I try to be understanding of people who like to stay in and not take it personally when they don't want to hang out, it just sucks that so far I haven't met people that try to understand me back. They put on their negative goggles and attack the first weakness that they see in me. Its human nature to find imperfections in relationships mainly because we've been fooled to think that our friendships and relationships are supposed to be like what we see in movies. I am not the perfect girlfriend and I am not the perfect friend. I make mistakes just like everyone else. My whole life I've had a hard time with friends and its because they never take the time to put in a little effort and understand me and that's not a friend. So I am done dwelling on friendships passed and looking forward. I'll try to be considerate of you, if you'll do the same for me.
I try not to depend too much on my friends for going out and having fun. I don't usually have a huge handful of friends. There's nothing wrong with that but that does mean that occasionally my few friends might feel pressured to hang out with me all the time when they don't want to. I never ever try to make them feel that way on purpose. I try to be understanding of people who like to stay in and not take it personally when they don't want to hang out, it just sucks that so far I haven't met people that try to understand me back. They put on their negative goggles and attack the first weakness that they see in me. Its human nature to find imperfections in relationships mainly because we've been fooled to think that our friendships and relationships are supposed to be like what we see in movies. I am not the perfect girlfriend and I am not the perfect friend. I make mistakes just like everyone else. My whole life I've had a hard time with friends and its because they never take the time to put in a little effort and understand me and that's not a friend. So I am done dwelling on friendships passed and looking forward. I'll try to be considerate of you, if you'll do the same for me.