Oct 11, 2004 14:20
Today I remembered why I love my favorite band. If you know me at all then it isn't even necessary to breathe the words......... Sarah Brooks gave me a present that I couldn't purchase anywhere- not even at the Galleria. There is your hint. This is rather ambiguous. I am smiling now. Smugly. I am trying to fall in love again. With so many things. I have been hearing that everyone is unhappy again(courtesy caito). I have also been hearing about people who are losing what drives them. I am scared to death. I am gonna miss everyone this winter. Theoretically I mean. You know what I mean? Friends, we all go to california in our heads in the cold months. At least I think I saw all of you there. I did. Our heads. All though, things make me swell more in the cold. Things are more prone to look artistic. Maybe because I am trying to keep those things in July. California seems a little less comforting outside of my head. I am on this whole not living in my head kick. Mostly because I meet way too many people who do. But since my attempts I can see how it might be easier to skim by reality.
Who misses the 80's? I do. I may have only been 5 when they ended but that is kind of besides the point. I swear we all live in another kind of time. Maybe that's why people don't get us. I have never known of so many people who mean it so much. That's what I am looking for. Someone who means it. Life is so fast that I often walk in the middle of everything. Did you see that? no, I am on my way to the library with everyone else who looks just like everyone else. I must have missed that. As usual this makes no sense. Lauren will like it. Movement seems to be all around. Some of us are at a dead stand still. I don't want to leave anything behind. Some songs tell it like it is even when they aren't talking about anything remotely in proximity to our situations. There had better always be songs like that.