Oct 10, 2004 19:41
Here it is. A blank slate ready and willing to take anything I throw onto it. I don't know if I will be so brutal as to unload all at once though. That's not very nice. This weekend had impact. At least enough to get me to write. I listened to " one ray of sunlight" today 4 times and then followed that action with a double dose of "anthem"... wow. What is really going on right? Was I supposed to call everyone today? I think so. That's my only explanation for today. Oh to be poetic and slick right now would be to my advantage. It would most definitely help in masking my honesty. Honesty about what? I really couldn't tell you. I just want someone to say hi to me before today is over. tick tick.. time is running low. I have cried a lot the past two days. Now most of you know me to cry over a blade of grass, but I haven't really cried in a very long time. I don't know if I was even crying for myself. Maybe I should have been. Lately I have been trying to cut down on using my cell phone so much but every time I do that I always land on the floor sitting with loneliness.I don't want to be a drag here. I am only trying to say that I miss yous. I know when I do this what will happen. Well that's a lie. I don't know what I am doing or if anything ever happens once it gets cold. but that is what I said last year. all at once now: knock on wood....
"luhv" I like that.