so yeah . .
i guess i'm not feeling too shitty anymore :-\
I cried last night again *oops* . . i cant help it, i was sitting in the back seat, with ky in the fucking front seat, and then, i started crying. why the fuck was i in the back? WHY?
yes, these are the dumb things i obsess about in my wickedly distorted little mind.
Worked today and yesterday. Went to sara's last night. Hung out at mary's for a bit. They smoked. I watched. Fun, right? yeah . .
my car has been sold, it is gone. All that is left is a patch of dead grass as a bitter reminder. Indeed, woe is me. But I don't mind. I think I'll come to embrace this new life of bus-riding and ride-mongering . . oh wait, it's not so new, I was doing it like a month ago . . darn.
there's this really cute guy who works in meat and seafood at publix named mike. He's like . . 6 foot something, blue eyes, sweet smile. I say hi to him all the time, and he always smiles back and says 'what's up.' *swoon* I was bending over to snatch a starburst from the bottom of the candy shelf, and he walked up behind me (my lane, out of two on either side that were open) to get a candy bar as well. God, it never took so fucking long to grab a damn starburst out of the stupid stack, i could just feel his eyes on me from behind while i was bent over in this come hither porn-star positon reaching for a stick of fruit chews. But i remained cool, and when i stood up, coyly said, "yeah, i saw you checking out my ass." and he laughed, and i guess blushed, idunno, i scurried away for lack of better things to say. I'm such a nerd!
but yeah. i love publix. the people there are awesome.
you know, it's really strange, I've had the craziest craving for emerald coast. I think my medication has really sent me over the edge . . *shrugs*
but yes, must go to sleep . . school tomorrow . . 10 o clock class, eep . . i dont want to go, but i must! . .
toodles
I cried last night again *oops* . . i cant help it, i was sitting in the back seat, with ky in the fucking front seat, and then, i started crying. why the fuck was i in the back? WHY?
yes, these are the dumb things i obsess about in my wickedly distorted little mind.
Worked today and yesterday. Went to sara's last night. Hung out at mary's for a bit. They smoked. I watched. Fun, right? yeah . .
my car has been sold, it is gone. All that is left is a patch of dead grass as a bitter reminder. Indeed, woe is me. But I don't mind. I think I'll come to embrace this new life of bus-riding and ride-mongering . . oh wait, it's not so new, I was doing it like a month ago . . darn.
there's this really cute guy who works in meat and seafood at publix named mike. He's like . . 6 foot something, blue eyes, sweet smile. I say hi to him all the time, and he always smiles back and says 'what's up.' *swoon* I was bending over to snatch a starburst from the bottom of the candy shelf, and he walked up behind me (my lane, out of two on either side that were open) to get a candy bar as well. God, it never took so fucking long to grab a damn starburst out of the stupid stack, i could just feel his eyes on me from behind while i was bent over in this come hither porn-star positon reaching for a stick of fruit chews. But i remained cool, and when i stood up, coyly said, "yeah, i saw you checking out my ass." and he laughed, and i guess blushed, idunno, i scurried away for lack of better things to say. I'm such a nerd!
but yeah. i love publix. the people there are awesome.
you know, it's really strange, I've had the craziest craving for emerald coast. I think my medication has really sent me over the edge . . *shrugs*
but yes, must go to sleep . . school tomorrow . . 10 o clock class, eep . . i dont want to go, but i must! . .
toodles