And the pressure, is getting to me...
I feel really odd right now. I've been having the full range of emotions today, and odd feelings inside my stomach. I made another mistake last night, dangit, and I'm really bothered with myself.
On a brighter note, I don't have that much homework due for tomorrow, and I'm finally going to get to run today. I'm planning it right now, setting it down in writing. I WILL RUN TODAY. I've been feeling really discouraged lately, so today I think that after I get my homework done, I'm going to really devote some time to God. With no one else around, I'm going to play praise & worship, and read the Bible. It doesn't sound like much, but if I can get into a good habit again, then I'll start feeling better about my relationship with Christ. I know he's never left me, but I have strayed from Him many times. The whole time I was in church yesterday, I let my stony heart and my pride get the best of me. I wasn't able to truly worship Him, and I haven't been able to in a long time. Dangit, I also was going to call Tanner this weekend, maybe I'll call him sometime this week. I'll definitely send him an e-mail about it.
At least Megs and I are doing good. I'm learning to let my pride fall down with that. Whenever we have a problem, I have to learn not to think that it was entirely my fault. She knows this better than anyone. This past weekend I went to two shows, and also saw Big Fish. Those were all entertaining and semi-fulfilling. It seems like I'm just doing homework all the time, and I have no time for anything else. TODAY I WILL MAKE TIME. I will not be conquered by this. I promise I will see you today, Father, and I will be grateful for everything you've given me so undeservingly.
On a brighter note, I don't have that much homework due for tomorrow, and I'm finally going to get to run today. I'm planning it right now, setting it down in writing. I WILL RUN TODAY. I've been feeling really discouraged lately, so today I think that after I get my homework done, I'm going to really devote some time to God. With no one else around, I'm going to play praise & worship, and read the Bible. It doesn't sound like much, but if I can get into a good habit again, then I'll start feeling better about my relationship with Christ. I know he's never left me, but I have strayed from Him many times. The whole time I was in church yesterday, I let my stony heart and my pride get the best of me. I wasn't able to truly worship Him, and I haven't been able to in a long time. Dangit, I also was going to call Tanner this weekend, maybe I'll call him sometime this week. I'll definitely send him an e-mail about it.
At least Megs and I are doing good. I'm learning to let my pride fall down with that. Whenever we have a problem, I have to learn not to think that it was entirely my fault. She knows this better than anyone. This past weekend I went to two shows, and also saw Big Fish. Those were all entertaining and semi-fulfilling. It seems like I'm just doing homework all the time, and I have no time for anything else. TODAY I WILL MAKE TIME. I will not be conquered by this. I promise I will see you today, Father, and I will be grateful for everything you've given me so undeservingly.