it must be ((me))

[take_me_a_w_a_y]

as i layed in the bath tonight - i had so many
things running through my mind. the one question
i can't keep asking myself is .. "i wonder if i'm the reason."i must of went wrong somewhere in life to be

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[chelle_izzle]

erg! i wish you were 2 years older, id show you that your looks and shit dont matter, someones going to stumble upon you one day and want you for YOU not for your looks and everything that relates to that. you have to show them that you have an awesome personality and you can do what they like to do, and dont get mixed up with your friends and your bf. your friends if they are truely your friends will ALWAYS be there for you, your boyfriend will not. youll quickly learn that, dont keep rushing yourself to finding a boyfriend, someone is out there for you. maybe tyler is or isnt the right one. but i promise you, that THEY will come to you. so go on with your life have fun while you can, your still young you shouldnt worry about settling down with someone right now, you have so much more important things to accomplish before your ready to find THE ONE. trust me, im finding that out to late. you have to first finish off the year and go through summer before your a senior, then all the fun stuff comes along, "your lasts" aka dances and football games, you'll have prom and even if you dont have a date GO! with all your girlfriends -- i regret that the most. then you have graduation!! omg, look forward to that if anything, thats the last time youll see your whole graduating class together! after that you have the summer to have your friends and maybe some flings, then hopefully your off to college and working, trust me in that time youll find someone. but the biggest thing is you have to wait for them eden. I LOVE YOU TO DEATH, but your a sucker for boys. just like me and jamie were, and look at us now, jamies 20 and im 19 pretty much and were just finding out what love is. you got a long way girly, thers only few that find love in the early years. but anyways im always up for talking so call my cell if im not online or even call my house if you want to. I LOVE YOU AND DONT FORGET that, even if we dont see eachother nearly as much as we used to, and i promise theres someone out there thinking this exact same thing, and hopefully youll find someone like them.

[take_me_a_w_a_y]

michelle - your right. your totally right about everything. i am a (sucker for boys) lol. i guess i need to stop being so damn negative about everything. thats what everyone tells me. just because me and tyler aren't excatly talking like we used to/hanging out.. i need to stop saying nothing will happen, because maybe one day everything will turn around. i guess i am just rushing into finding a boyfriend and i'm tearing myself down about it. but your totally right. even if tyler isn't the one, i always got him as a friend, and theres always "one" out there for me. i really need to just start caring about school and graduating before i get depressed about not having a boyfriend. and even though it really is depressing to see someone go their whole life though high school and have one boyfriend, i need to just not let myself get down about it, like always. i'm always drowning myself with all these thoughts and blaming myself, when it could just be the guys around me. and even though its pry gonna be awhile, i guess i am just gonna have to wait, even though it could be forever. and your right, i always got my friends to turn too, and a boyfriend could not always be there for me like my friends <33

thanks for everything. and yeah, i know we barely hang out anymore/barely talk to eachother.. but i'm glad to know someone cares.. someone i barely talk to you still cares about me no matter what, unlike some other people *cough*cough* .. but thanks a million. i love you!