It's sad but true
It makes me laugh that the last comment I got on a LJ entry was Jan 12th 2009 and it was my official move in to the new house date. Now here I am back at the old house with everything completely different. You could say I'm not one for change but that seems a little hypocritical when nothing has been the same recently. I was so optimistic about the whole moving out thing and still am but just couldn't take it at that job anymore. I sacrificed a few things just so I could end up here. The grass always looks greener I guess but the truth is if I would have stayed there I would of ended up probably buying a house with Blah and I'd be stuck their for several years. That would of been a mistake. It sucks because now I believe he is just gonna go through with that himself and I doubt he'll ever leave that place.
So I do believe in late 2011 I will be moving to Kentucky to stay with my uncle for a little while to get a feel for things. I'd like to get a job and work down there for an extended period of time mainly to see if it's something I'd be interested in making permanent before my parents move down there. I'll have the option of coming back and just taking over this house so I guess I want to test out both sides of the field before making up my mind. It'll suck leaving friends behind but it seems everyone else is getting on with their lives and I'm still sitting around wondering what to do with mine. I just need to make some decisions and find out if I want to be on my own or stick with the people who care for me no matter what. It's a tough choice. People think I'm too close to my family but I don't feel that way at all. I do believe I need to start making it more on my own but what's wrong with a little help?
Derick is officially moved up to Eastern in which I'm very excited for him. It sucks for me because he's probably the only person who knows the "true" me if that's not sounding cliche. He's helped me deal with several of my issues over the past year and I'd like to think I returned the favor on one occasion or two. He'll be home on weekends and I'm sure he'll be over my house and everything but we both know it won't be how it was when we lived together. I hope you find what you're looking for at school. You know I got nothing but love for you.
My choice of friends recently has been scattered. I hang out with more people now then it seems like I ever have. New and old faces, just trying to get a feel for the type of person I am these days. Some more bad influences than others but I'm a big boy and know what I should and shouldn't be doing.
I'm going to start writing lyrics for music. I've fumbled through songs before but just seem like I have more motivation and inspiration these days with recent events. I'll throw them at a handful of people and see what sticks.
So I do believe in late 2011 I will be moving to Kentucky to stay with my uncle for a little while to get a feel for things. I'd like to get a job and work down there for an extended period of time mainly to see if it's something I'd be interested in making permanent before my parents move down there. I'll have the option of coming back and just taking over this house so I guess I want to test out both sides of the field before making up my mind. It'll suck leaving friends behind but it seems everyone else is getting on with their lives and I'm still sitting around wondering what to do with mine. I just need to make some decisions and find out if I want to be on my own or stick with the people who care for me no matter what. It's a tough choice. People think I'm too close to my family but I don't feel that way at all. I do believe I need to start making it more on my own but what's wrong with a little help?
Derick is officially moved up to Eastern in which I'm very excited for him. It sucks for me because he's probably the only person who knows the "true" me if that's not sounding cliche. He's helped me deal with several of my issues over the past year and I'd like to think I returned the favor on one occasion or two. He'll be home on weekends and I'm sure he'll be over my house and everything but we both know it won't be how it was when we lived together. I hope you find what you're looking for at school. You know I got nothing but love for you.
My choice of friends recently has been scattered. I hang out with more people now then it seems like I ever have. New and old faces, just trying to get a feel for the type of person I am these days. Some more bad influences than others but I'm a big boy and know what I should and shouldn't be doing.
I'm going to start writing lyrics for music. I've fumbled through songs before but just seem like I have more motivation and inspiration these days with recent events. I'll throw them at a handful of people and see what sticks.