Missing Chances (Ch. 18)
Title: Missing ChancesChapter: 18/23
Pairing: Yesung/Hangeng(eventually)Many side pairings
Rating: PG
Genre: VERY AU High School, Romance, Humor, mild angst, and um many more
Disclaimer: own no one -sobs-
Summary: Yesung likes Ryeowook, Kyuhyun likes Ryeowook. So to make sure Kyuhyun gets time and attention from Ryeowook, Kyuhyun makes it so Yesung has to help the new transfer student who just happens to be the nice looking Chinese Hangeng.
A/N - I'm having problems writing the last 2 chapters. Just letting you know WAY in advance that after chapter 21 it might be a bit before i post the last 2 xD (also sry for late posting)
Chapter 18
I woke up to my alarm beeping at me. I pulled the covers over my head and reached for my alarm button. Finding it, I beat it to silence and pulled my arm back under the covers. I didn’t want to get up. I was comfy and warm. My phone alarm started going off, interrupting my dream like state.
Groaning, I flung the covers off and looked for the phone. I found the damn thing on the other side of the desk and the only way to shut the alarm off was to get up and get the phone.
Figuring the world was against me staying in bed; I just went ahead and got up out of bed. I went and grabbed my phone to turn the alarm off. When I saw the time and date I remembered why I set it so early. I was going to practice most of the day since my recital was tomorrow. I groaned and just got dressed, knowing I might as well go and get it over with.
Since it was so early and the fact my department was last perform, I saw no one on the way to my practice studio. I was minding my own business, shuffling my way to the studio, when I turned a corner and stumbled on my living nightmare.
Before I could be seen, I flung myself back around the corner, breathing heavy. ‘GOD, those two are worse then Heechul and Siwon. Can’t they do that somewhere with a door and away for me, so I don’t have to stumble upon them?’
I peaked back around the corner to see is they were moving or hunkering in. Nope, not moving away, moving closer. I watched as Kyuhyun brought his hand up and caressed Ryeowook’s cheek before leaning down to kiss him.
I moved back from the corner and down the hall again, feeling ill. I needed to get past them to get to my assigned practice room, but I was not walking past that. Now was not the time to deal with all that, not with my semester grade on the line.
I was pacing when I got an idea. I backup a bit more and held my notes and other papers down. I counted to three, threw my stuff in the air and yelled “Son of a bitch!” I knelt down, picking everything up. I picked up my notes extremely slowly, while keeping an eye on the corner, hoping that one of them had heard me.
Sure enough, I saw Ryeowook stick his head around the corner, see me and turn to talk to Kyuhyun. I pretended to not notice him when he walked up.
Ryeowook knelt next to me “Yesung, you ok? I heard you shout coming out of my practice room.”
I snorted, ‘And the lies keep coming’ I thought but what I said was, “I’m fine. I had a klutz moment and dropped everything. I’m on my way to my studio to practice by myself while Leeteuk is still sleeping.”
Ryeowook just nodded, “Oh I was afraid you hurt yourself.” We stood up and he handed me the papers he was holding. When I took them he suddenly spoke, “Hey Yesung listen. After the recital tomorrow I was wondering if we could talk. It’s been a while since we hung out, we can talk and catch up. I know we have been busy the last couple weeks with things.”
I just looked at him. I’m pretty sure I knew what he wanted to talk about and I was also pretty sure I just didn’t want to hear it and I didn’t care. “I’ll have to see. I think I promised Kangin or Hangeng I would hang with them. I’ll see what’s up and get back to you ok?” and I headed off with out hearing a response.
I wasn’t ready to hear him try to explain lying to me and hiding all this yet. I pass Kyuhyun around the corner without even a second glance and went into my practice room. I was now in no mood to practice. This was why I didn’t want to talk to him. I knew I would get depressed.
I just sat down and turned the radio on. I listened to a couple songs, when a song I haven’t heard in a while came on. I sat there listening to it and realized that most of it felt like it was about my life. I started tapping a beat out with my fingers and noticed it could probably be played on a piano.
Out of no where I had this desire to sing this song tomorrow. I could just feel it in my gut that I could truly sing this song. I already knew most the lyrics, but I remembered I would have to get Leeteuk to go along with it. ‘Well we have all day. It’s a simple song I was sure he could nail it.’ My heart and my gut are telling me to do this because of that I just had to listen.
I pulled my phone out and called Leeteuk. I woke him up, but I told him that something changed and I need him to come out to the practice room as soon as he could and I hung up.
As I waited for him, I pulled my laptop out and looked for the piano score on this song. By the time he got there I already found them and downloaded it.
I didn’t even turn around when he came in. “Ok Yesung, what was so important that you had to wake me up so early?”
I turned then and answered, “I want to sing a different song.”
Leeteuk just gaped at me like a fish out of water, “You want to change your song with the recital tomorrow? Are you insane!?” he hissed at me.
I smiled, “No, I’m not. I just have a feeling that this song would be better. I have the piano score and it looks easy. I already know most of the song. All you have to do is play what’s on this paper. We have all day and tomorrow morning to get it and I know we can.”
He just looked at the score I showed him and then back to me. He sighed, “Does this song have a meaning to you?”
I nodded, “Yes and because of that I will be singing it with all my ability.”
Leeteuk just nodded and sat down at the piano, “Ok then. We need to get busy. We have a lot to cover.”
I smiled and got ready. I just knew tomorrow was going to be perfect.
We spent all day and well into the night practicing. We took a couple breaks, but nothing long. After the first couple of run thru Leeteuk was truly on board with this song change, we stopped when Leeteuk couldn’t read the notes anymore and my singing was filled with more yawns then words.
We were happy with how it was going. There were no regrets when we went to bed. I knew I was going to nail it at the performance.
I was exhausted by the time I got back to my room that night. I didn’t even go and get dinner. I just changed into sleep clothes, crawled under my blankets and passed out. The last thought before sleep, was that I was too tired to have another dream.
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Leeteuk woke me up bright and early the next day. He figured we needed all the practice time we could get.
By the time it was an hour before I went on I was sure I could sing that song in my sleep. I believe I actually started to do that last night while practicing.
I was standing in a corner with Leeteuk, starting to feel the jitters creeping up.
Leeteuk noticed how I kept fidgeting and he put a hand on my shoulder. “Yesung, breathe its going to be alright. I was shocked when you decided to change songs but after hearing you practice, I believe you made a great decision. So breathe, you got this.”
I smiled at him, “Thanks. Who do you think showed up?”
Leeteuk thought for a second, “Well I’m sure Kangin and Kibum showed up. Zhoumi is performing so his roommate. Well damn, I like to think they all showed up. It doesn’t matter, because you are going to wow them.”
I laughed “Again thanks, not only for playing with me but helping me do all this.”
Leeteuk smiled, “No problem. Now, I believe we perform after Ryeowook and Kyuhyun.”
I just nodded. I didn’t really want to watch, but since I went on after I had to be at the curtain.
I thought the hour would crawl by, but instead it mocked me and flew by. Next thing I knew it was Ryeowook’s and Kyuhyun’s turn and I was watching from behind the curtain.
When the music started and Ryeowook started playing, I found myself going down memory lane again. I didn’t want to, but just hearing him play brought back Christmas gatherings with our families and he would play for us. That didn’t last long, when Kyuhyun started singing, I was brought right back to the present where everything was different.
I felt detached listening to them. Even I had to admit that even though I pretty much loathed Kyuhyun, it was wonderful to hear them sing. They blended amazingly together; Ryeowook’s higher pitch blending right in with Kyuhyun’s smooth voice to create a unique sound. I found myself clapping along when it ended. Honestly, it was amazing and I wasn’t sure I could compete.
I watched as they bowed and exited on the other side of the stage. We waited for the teacher to introduce us and we took our places.
I walked up to the microphone and cleared my voice “Um… I would just like to say before we start that there has been a change. I will be singing Tears Run Dry instead of the song on the program. Please enjoy.” I refused to focus on anyone in the audience and I picked a spot on the wall behind the audience to focus on.
I waited for the music and Leeteuk to start. I heard them start and I took an in breath listening for my cue. When I heard it, I just opened my emotions and started to sing.
“Caught in a moment that won't let go
Trying to find my way out
When movin' on is a dead end road
Might as well turn back around
And I'm in the dark
I'm completely numb
Like a shadow that's turned to stone “
Just singing these lyrics, I could feel the emotion welling up inside. I was refusing to let tears get in the way. I instead let my voice show the emotion.
I'm broken, wide open
You've shattered all we had
And I'm through with hoping
Somehow I'm gonna put the pieces back
I've cried me an ocean
Now there's nothing left inside
I'm done here not knowing
Where do you go when the tears run dry?
I let all that I felt over the past couple weeks show in my voice. I couldn’t help thinking of Ryeowook as I sang.
I close my eyes and I breathe you in
It's always and never the same
How do we end up strangers again
When I'm still dreaming your name
And I'm calling out
Are you hearing me?
I don't know where I belong
Now it's so unclear
Why do I wish you here
When I'm already gone
Singing that brought the dream back to the surface and I was afraid that would get in the way. I started really getting in the song now hoping to chase my demons away.
As I sang the chorus again, I was praying Ryeowook was hearing this. As I was singing, I had this realization that this song was the start of my getting over him. I just knew after this, I was going to be ok. I let the tears I was holding back fall now, for they were going to be the last.
Maybe I should runaway
Maybe I should disappear (ooh)
Maybe I should find a place
Where no one knows I'm there
Anywhere but here
I sang the last part with so much emotion and my voice wavering slightly, I was afraid it wasn’t clear for the people to hear. As I ended, I just stood there with tears on my face and the auditorium was silent.
All of a sudden it was exploding in applause. I think I started crying harder as I laughed and bowed. Leeteuk had to show me where to exit. All I could hear was the whistling, cheers and the clapping.
Leeteuk laughing, as he helped remove the tears. Saying it was better then even he thought it would be. I just smiled and knew I was going to be alright.
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Kibum watched as Yesung walked on stage to perform. When Yesung announced he was singing a different song he looked at Kangin and Hangeng and asked if they knew anything about his. They just shook his head. Kibum just turned puzzled eyes to Yesung and waited for him to start.
When Yesung started singing Kibum was sucked in instantly. The emotion and words he was singing with were just amazing. Kibum had never heard him sing with all his heart before. He turned to make a comment to Kangin about it but the expression on Hangeng’s face had him holding back laughter. It was the same look Yesung had when watching him dance.
Kibum nudged Hangeng. When he turned a bit to him to let him know he was listening Kibum whispered to him. “He is amazing isn’t he?”
Hangeng just nodded his head, his eyes transfixed to the stage. Kibum snorted and turned back to the stage. He was shocked to see tears on Yesung’s face. He realized who this song was for and why he was singing with so much emotion.
When Yesung finished all was silent and then every body started cheering. Kibum even saw a couple with tears on their faces to. Kibum knew from watching Yesung smile on the stage that he was going to be ok. When Kibum turned to Hangeng and saw his face, he knew it wouldn’t be long before Yesung was better then just ok. He knew that Yesung would soon be happy. He was his best friend, he knew these things. Kibum laughed and dragged Hangeng and Kangin backstage.
Chapter 19
A/N - If you are curious as to what song that is its this Here i took out a couple lyrics but its this song xD...i thought it worked for this ^^;;