Missing Chances (Ch. 17)
Title: Missing ChancesChapter: 17/23
Pairing: Yesung/Hangeng(eventually)Many side pairings
Rating: PG
Genre: VERY AU High School, Romance, Humor, mild angst, and um many more
Disclaimer: own no one -sobs-
Summary: Yesung likes Ryeowook, Kyuhyun likes Ryeowook. So to make sure Kyuhyun gets time and attention from Ryeowook, Kyuhyun makes it so Yesung has to help the new transfer student who just happens to be the nice looking Chinese Hangeng.
Chapter 17
I woke up gasping for breath again. I didn’t need to rub my eyes this time, to know I was crying again. I just sat there trying to calm my breathing down. I groaned and put my head in my hands, trying to stop thinking about the dream.
I swung my legs off the side of my bed and just sat there. I knew I didn’t have to go to Leeteuk this time. It was basically the same dream. The only thing that was different was, instead of screaming and chasing after Ryeowook and Kyuhyun; I just dropped to my knees and cried as they left. It still had that familiar voice telling me it would be all right and to trust them.
I got up and changed, thinking of what this new dream could mean. I had a feeling it was my subconscious telling me that, even though I was still hurting over Ryeowook, I was letting him go.
Not sure what to make of that, I knew I had to do something and keep my mind off of it. If I dwelled on it, I would either drive myself insane or end up a state of depression.
Knowing that Leeteuk would be super busy with his recital tomorrow, I decided to head over to the music department and practice by myself.
Getting to the practice studios I was looking for an empty one when I heard some voices. Having heard it for years I instantly recognized Ryeowook’s voice. I just stopped near the door and just listened.
It was bringing back memories of playing outside and singing whatever was on the radio station our parents were listening to. I could feel myself being sweep up in the emotion of the voice. Before I could fall completely under the spell, I heard Kyuhyun’s voice start singing. Hearing his voice and realizing that the emotion in Ryeowook’s voice was for him, I was able to fully snap out of it and move. I rushed to the next empty room fighting back the tears. I was not going to cry. I was stronger then that, I could push it from my mind and focus on something else. I did just that. I quickly turned my music on and on repeat so I could practice over and over again. So I could sing till I was ready to see other people again.
I pretty much spent all day in that room. I sang till my voice got hoarse. Then, with the music still playing, I feel asleep in the chair I was taking a break in.
When I finally woke up, via falling out of the chair, I realized I was close to breaking curfew. I quickly gathered my things and hauled ass back to the dorms. I didn’t see a single person it was so late.
Making it to my room, I heard my cell phone ringing. I forgot that I had left it behind this morning. I picked it up to a couple of miss calls, two from Kangin, one from Kibum, and one from my mom.
Knowing it was too late to call them back and figuring it was them making sure I was showing up tomorrow, I just turned it off to charge.
Thinking I couldn’t possibly be tired after that long ass nap in the music room, I just lay down on my bed and stared up at the ceiling.
Apparently, my mind wasn’t done with that nap; the next thing I knew I was opening my eyes, from what I thought was a blink, to see the sun shining thru my blinds. I was disorientated for a couple minutes, trying to remember where I was.
I looked at my alarm to see that it was the next day, the day of the drama performances. I was shocked I actually slept. To me, it felt like I had closed my eyes to blink and I opened them to a new day. It was a very weird feeling.
I had a couple hours before I had to go to the auditorium, so I decided to catch up with school work. I didn’t feel like leaving my room yet and after spending all day practicing, I really didn’t feel like doing that either.
I was feeling completely accomplished, I had finished my school work right when it was time to head down to the auditorium.
I made it to the auditorium, when everybody was heading in. I spotted two familiar heads. I decided to yell to get their attention, “Hey Hangeng! Eunhyuk! Wait up.”
They stopped and turned at my shouting. Hangeng smiled and started waving. I did not like the fluttering my heart decided to do in return of Hangeng’s wave.
I must have been scowling when I got to them because Hangeng spoke up, “Yesung, are you alright? You look kind of upset.”
Remembering the past misunderstandings between us I answered, “I just had kind of a bad day yesterday and I’m still feeling the effects of it.”
Hangeng glanced at Eunhyuk, noticing him not listening and focusing on the program, he asked, “Did something happen with Ryeowook or Kyuhyun?”
I gave him a soft smile, “Sort of. I didn’t run into them or anything. I just heard them practicing and it put me in a depressed mood.”
Before we could fully enter the auditorium, Hangeng grabbed my arm, “You know you could have called me. My recital already ended so I was available to talk.”
I just looked at him, “It honestly never occurred to me to talk to anyone. I’m still in the mind set right now that everyone is busy and doesn’t need to hear my sob story. Don’t worry I didn’t talk to you because I don’t trust you, because lord knows that ain’t true. After all the stuff you helped me with, I probably would go to you first now.” I smiled at him.
He smiled and was about to say something, but Eunhyuk ran up, “Hey guys, come on. I found some good seats, they are next to Shindong and he’s holding them for us. If we don’t hurry he will probably give them to some girls.”
Laughing at that, I grabbed Hangeng’s arm and followed Eunhyuk to our seats. I had to laugh when we got there. They were almost exactly where we sat to watch them perform, just a couple rows down.
We still had 10 minutes before it started, so we just chatted. I told them again how I thought their performances were amazing. Eunhyuk kept thanking me for saying that and Shindong told him to just shut up after the first thank you.
I laughed with them; I forgot how much fun it was to hang out with people like this. The past 2 months to only people I ever really saw were Kangin and Kibum.
I heard Hangeng chuckling next to me. I turned, “What’s funny?”
He just shook his head, “Nothing. Just felt like laughing with you.”
Not fully believing him, I narrowed my eyes suspiciously at him, “Ok, if you say so.” I looked down at the program I got at the door. There were a couple groups before our friends’ performance. Leeteuk and Kangin’s group were the first performance of our friends, next Kibum’s group, followed by Heechul’s and Siwon’s performance.
The first four groups were average with their performances. They were good and were able to get a few laughs or a few tears depending on the mood of the performance. It was finally time for the more experienced and skilled actors. Leeteuk, Kangin and a couple other people in their group were coming out on stage.
I watched as they got everything set up. I wondered if Sungmin was here. I leaned over Eunhyuk and spoke to Shindong. “Hey Shindong, is Sungmin here?”
Shindong leaned over and looked at me, “Yea, I believe he said he was coming. I think he is down near the front. Why?”
I just smiled, “I was just wondering.” and I leaned back in my chair. I think it was a good thing that he was here to witness Kangin doing something that he shined in. Might make him like Kangin more.
I watched as they were doing a comedy skit. I didn’t really get what was going on, but whatever it was it involved Leeteuk and Kangin to bicker. I guess they chose those two for that part because they do it so well in real life. They ended their performance in a round of applause and laughter.
I watched as they bowed and left the stage. Now was the time for the most amazing performance of the night. I leaned into Eunhyuk, “Have you seen Kibum truly perform or just practice?”
Eunhyuk looked me puzzled, “I only saw him practice when we were on the roof.”
I smiled at him, “Then you are in for a real treat.” and turned back to the stage.
We watched as Kibum’s group came out on stage. They had a lot to set up so, I turned back to Eunhyuk. “How about I tell you a couple little things about Kibum as we wait, we have almost 10 minutes to just sit here.”
Eunhyuk quirked an eyebrow, “Ok, what you got?”
I smirked, “Fact number one, he could have joined any department, but he chose drama.”
Eunhyuk’s eyes widened a little, “Any? He could have joined the dance?”
I nodded, “Yep. I’ve been friends with his older brother for years, so I’ve known him for years too. He’s a pretty good rapper and I’ve seen him dance some amazing dances. It’s just his calling is for acting, so he decided to focus all his efforts on acting.”
Eunhyuk looked like he didn’t believe me. I continued to smile, “Honest. Why don’t you ask him to show you next time y’all are talking. You might just be lucky enough and he will actually show you some of his other skills.”
Before he could say anything, the lights in the auditorium dimmed and the stage lights brightened. It was time for them to start.
The first part of the skit, Kibum was quiet. His part of the skit was his body movement; he didn’t make one sound. From what the others were saying, he was a mute.
I was amazed as I watched him on the stage. I never get bored watching him perform. I turned to make a comment to Eunhyuk, but I stopped when I saw his eyes.
They were focusing on Kibum, watching his every move, with intensity, soaking up every move. I was sure that if I asked him what happened during the skit after it was over, he would be able to tell me exactly what Kibum did the whole time.
I smiled as I watched him watch Kibum. I had this shrewd notion that this was how I was watching Hangeng yesterday. I shook my head and focused back on Kibum.
Their group had hardly finished, when Eunhyuk jumped up and started clapping and hollering. I laughed as I pulled him back down. He just jumped back up and said he was heading backstage. I just watched him jog back there. I was happy to see that there were at least some people that were moving on to better things.
I heard Hangeng speak, “Kibum was amazing. I never knew you could act like that saying a word.”
I just nodded and watched as Heechul’s and Siwon’s group set up. I snorted when I noticed Heechul was directing everyone on how to set up the stage.
I turned to comment on Heechul’s action to Hangeng when I saw his face. He just had a small smile on his face, like his was thinking of something pleasant. I followed his eyes to Heechul, something stirred in me. Not knowing what it was I just turned away.
Honestly, I couldn’t tell anyone what Heechul’s performance was about. I know he was playing the female role. That wasn’t hard to figure out why, at least to me. Siwon was the lead and Heechul wouldn’t want some girl touching him, not even for a grade.
I think, I spent the whole performance just staring at a spot on the wall. I actually jumped when Hangeng started cheering, I didn’t hear the performance end. I watched as they all bowed and left the stage.
I saw Heechul grab Siwon and pull him off fast. I rolled my eyes. ‘Seriously, Heechul can’t keep his hands off for 5 minutes.’
When Hangeng got up, so did I. I knew where he was going so, I just followed him as he headed back stage.
I promptly lost him when he turned a corner a good couple minutes before me. I turned the corner and just stood there for a minute, trying to figure which hall way he went down.
I was heading for one of the hallways on the right, when Hangeng came running around the corner.
Before he could run past me, I grabbed his arm, “Hangeng, what’s wrong? Where are you going?”
Hangeng just pulled his arm out of my grip, “I, all of a sudden don’t feel well. I’m heading back to my room.” and he ran off.
I looked from him to the hallway he came from. Figuring, I’ll find out what happened from there, I walked down the hallway.
Following the hallway, I turned a corner and came to what affected Hangeng. Heechul and Siwon were in a lip lock that had me blushing. Figuring I could help, I banged my hand on the wall next to me.
They sprang apart in a flash. Heechul gave me an annoyed look. Siwon was at least looking embarrassed.
Heechul opened his mouth to say something, but I beat him to it, “Just thought I would let you two know that this is not the best place to do that if you want to keep it secret. Also, one more person now knows of you two and you might want to relocate to prevent more.”
Siwon started to look panicked. Heechul gave me a confused look, “Who and why didn’t they say anything.”
I just shook my head, “It was Hangeng and stumbling upon you two probably scarred him for life and didn’t want to make it worse by announcing that he found you two making out in public. Now if you excuse me, I have to go find him.”
I turned not giving them a chance to speak. I figured he did go back to his room so I started running back to the dorm. I heard a couple people yell my name, but something was spurring me on to get to Hangeng as quickly as I could.
Since everyone was still at the auditorium, I didn’t run into anyone in the dorm. I made it to his room and listened for a second. I could hear movement so I know I didn’t waste the run back to the dorms and him not being here.
I knocked on the door and waited. I heard a soft “Come in”. I went in and saw Hangeng sitting at his desk just staring at the surface. I went in, dodging clothes and books, and sat on the bed close to him.
I was uncomfortable, but he had helped me a lot and if I was right, I might be able to help him. “You okay?” I knew what I had said was lame, but I had to start with something.
He turned and looked at me. He looked upset but not depressed. “I’m doing ok. Just got a shock is all.”
I figured the best way to get him to open up was to just ask him. “Um yea, I went and looked for what made you run like that. I saw them. Did you, by chance, like Heechul?”
He shifted, “Yes. I liked him a bit. I feel kind of sad to find out he is with someone else, but I honestly haven’t liked him for long. So it hurts yea but I know it won’t last.” He lifted his eyes and looked fully at me. “I won’t cry over it. I’m sure if I liked him longer I would be crying now. I think I’m more confused then anything. The way those two were going at it, it seemed they have been that way for a while.”
I shifted and interrupted, so I could help with at least that, “Ummmmm yea, about that.”
Hangeng just closed his mouth and looked at me.
I continued, “Those two have actually been dating for over a year. They keep it secret because of Siwon. Heechul doesn’t want Siwon to get shit for dating the school diva”
Hangeng’s eyes widened, “Oh.”
I nodded, “Only their roommates and best friends know. Oh and me, but that’s just because I didn’t knock and walked in on basically what you saw tonight.”
Hangeng groaned and let his head thump on his desk “God! I was stupid. I knew he had to have someone.”
I stood up and patted him on the back “If I had known you liked him, I would have told you that he was dating Siwon. I had thought to tell you that he always picks on the new kids like that, with all the teasing and touching. You just had to be one of the lucky ones he became friends with.”
Hangeng looked up at that, “Friends? So that part is real? He’s not just making me do things now?”
I laughed at that, “OH NO! He is just making you do things. He just asks people that are his friends to do things. It’s when he starts to ignore you and not say a word to you that you would have to worry.”
Hangeng gave me an understanding look and nodded. He groaned again “God! I’m really tired for some reason now.” and he stretched.
I chuckled again and moved back, “Well damn! You had a lot happen today. You might be feeling like this for a couple days. You should get some rest.” I started making for the door, “This time let me help you, If you need to talk just pop on over and let’s talk.”
I heard Hangeng chuckle, “Ok, will do. Good night.”
“Good night” I shut the door and I went to my room. I felt drained, but happy for some reason. I got ready for bed with a small smile. I lay down and tried to figure out why I was so happy but before I could truly think anything, I passed out.
Chapter 18
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