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You ever wonder where you're going. Like you'll sit down and realize that everything you're doing. You're not doing for the real purpose...? That you're really doing it for reasons besides the mission of the group?
Escrima... I'm pretty sure the only reason I'm doing this is to give myself battle experience.
Zazen... I'm certain I'm just using this to make sure I meditate.
College... Am I here cause I want to be here? Am I learning anything that I really want to learn? I think in the end, I'm just using it to further my goals of being socially active.
No matter what I do... all of it seems so pointless. I'm not thinking scary thoughts about suicide or anything. I just want to find a path again. Something that makes this life have meaning again. Something that will make me care about everything again. I don't want to make anyone worry anymore. I'm sorry guys. We just haven't found the path to our destiny yet. The images are getting murky. We're not searching for enlightenment but a deeper understanding of things. We can't seem to surmount these two obstacles however.
我不相信。 不可以认识什么人。 我跟很多人见面，秦中我找不到有意思的人。
【我不知道下面的句子对不对】 That last sentence I'm not sure whether or not it's right.
Anyways. I'm just feeling rather uncertain of things now. Maybe it's because I am able to recognize certain things in my life for what they are. But I was self-conscious today! Isn't that amazing!? It means I care about what other people think of me. I'm getting a little better and I'm glad on some level. At the same time I wish it didn't happen tonight when I went out to be social and talk to Chinese girls. -_-'
I'm hungry. Ｉ＇ｍ ｇｏｉｎｇ ｔｏ ｇｅｔ ｆｏｏｄ． Therefore I shall be back soon I hope! Good night!
Escrima... I'm pretty sure the only reason I'm doing this is to give myself battle experience.
Zazen... I'm certain I'm just using this to make sure I meditate.
College... Am I here cause I want to be here? Am I learning anything that I really want to learn? I think in the end, I'm just using it to further my goals of being socially active.
No matter what I do... all of it seems so pointless. I'm not thinking scary thoughts about suicide or anything. I just want to find a path again. Something that makes this life have meaning again. Something that will make me care about everything again. I don't want to make anyone worry anymore. I'm sorry guys. We just haven't found the path to our destiny yet. The images are getting murky. We're not searching for enlightenment but a deeper understanding of things. We can't seem to surmount these two obstacles however.
我不相信。 不可以认识什么人。 我跟很多人见面，秦中我找不到有意思的人。
【我不知道下面的句子对不对】 That last sentence I'm not sure whether or not it's right.
Anyways. I'm just feeling rather uncertain of things now. Maybe it's because I am able to recognize certain things in my life for what they are. But I was self-conscious today! Isn't that amazing!? It means I care about what other people think of me. I'm getting a little better and I'm glad on some level. At the same time I wish it didn't happen tonight when I went out to be social and talk to Chinese girls. -_-'
I'm hungry. Ｉ＇ｍ ｇｏｉｎｇ ｔｏ ｇｅｔ ｆｏｏｄ． Therefore I shall be back soon I hope! Good night!