Snow Update!
Oh sorry to everyone out there! I haven't told you what happened with Snow.
Let's see...
9/3: I straight up told him I liked him after meditation that night. He was all awkwardly cute as he rejected me. But nonetheless it was a rejection.
9/5: I see him at meditation. He is somewhat distant with me. A little cautious too I guess. He was there on a friday.
9/7: I see him at the involvement fair. I tell myself to not go up to him and leave him alone. It's his senior year, and I don't want to be the thorn in his side.
9/8: Meditation again. He's there on a Monday. That was unusual. That's unusual since he usually only comes on Wed. He brushed his shorts against me as he was serving the Sangha. I was surprised, but moved to not be touching him anymore out of respect.
9/10: Meditation again. This time as he's serving tea he leans against my back with his leg for a while as he's serving tea. Thank god it was dark, cause my ears were red! How shameful of me! To have my ears turn red and just him touching me for a few brief seconds.
9/12: This is going to be the last meditation I'll be attending for a while. He's been really distant from me lately. Even more stand-offish than guys usually are.
And for some reason I've been feeling really lonely lately even though I'm talking to a lot more people. Being more social. It just feels like such a... shallow experience. I'm not satisfied with just this apparently. Something is missing. And these meditations aren't doing anything for me anymore. I'll go in and I'll meditate. And I'll wind up spacing out.
I'm glad I went for a little while though cause I got to meet Snow. He's such a nice guy. I seriously hope the best for him. I obviously still like him, but he's not into that type of stuff. It's okay though cause I was pretty sure he wasn't. It doesn't mean I still don't think he's cute.
Fun stuff ya know. Bless you all for standing by me through the rough times though. Especially those of you who don't ever see me in person! I have lots of love to you especially. ^_~
Let's see...
9/3: I straight up told him I liked him after meditation that night. He was all awkwardly cute as he rejected me. But nonetheless it was a rejection.
9/5: I see him at meditation. He is somewhat distant with me. A little cautious too I guess. He was there on a friday.
9/7: I see him at the involvement fair. I tell myself to not go up to him and leave him alone. It's his senior year, and I don't want to be the thorn in his side.
9/8: Meditation again. He's there on a Monday. That was unusual. That's unusual since he usually only comes on Wed. He brushed his shorts against me as he was serving the Sangha. I was surprised, but moved to not be touching him anymore out of respect.
9/10: Meditation again. This time as he's serving tea he leans against my back with his leg for a while as he's serving tea. Thank god it was dark, cause my ears were red! How shameful of me! To have my ears turn red and just him touching me for a few brief seconds.
9/12: This is going to be the last meditation I'll be attending for a while. He's been really distant from me lately. Even more stand-offish than guys usually are.
And for some reason I've been feeling really lonely lately even though I'm talking to a lot more people. Being more social. It just feels like such a... shallow experience. I'm not satisfied with just this apparently. Something is missing. And these meditations aren't doing anything for me anymore. I'll go in and I'll meditate. And I'll wind up spacing out.
I'm glad I went for a little while though cause I got to meet Snow. He's such a nice guy. I seriously hope the best for him. I obviously still like him, but he's not into that type of stuff. It's okay though cause I was pretty sure he wasn't. It doesn't mean I still don't think he's cute.
Fun stuff ya know. Bless you all for standing by me through the rough times though. Especially those of you who don't ever see me in person! I have lots of love to you especially. ^_~