Stuck
I watched the movie crash just now, and wondered if people are really that fucked up in the head, and then it occured to me, of course we are. "war is a condition of civilization." This is a quote from a flick during school, and it didnt really catch me on the multitudes of levels of truth within it.
I also watched a movie "About Adam" yesterday. In a way, thi movie describes a large part of me. The movie is about a man who through influence and charm or sheer boldness, finds a way to constantly feed people exactly what it is they want, no matter the strain on himself. Makes him happy to appease others, which kind of is a base outline of who I am nowadays.
I'm home for another 19 days approximately. There are still a shitload of things I want to do, the challenge is accomplishing at least half, because I'll never realistically do them all.
My friends make me happy. but I've barely even seen 5 of them since I've been home. I miss my friends. I think next weekend I'll go to philly if they'll have me. I miss them, and I need love from them because they are amazing people.
I have a lot more to say, but I'm pretty tired at the moment. New year's this year was rather awful. Ive had this allergy-attack/ sinus cold for days, and it gets so bad i have to sleep just for relief. So yeah, i didnt even see the ball drop, I was asleep on my sofa curled up with my dogs by myself. So yeah, happy new year.
Hopefully this year will be a little better than last year. I even broke superstition and ate chicken, just because every other year i avoided it like tradition, and scrounged for money anyways, so maybe chicken is actually the answer. hell, if everything tastes like chicken, why is it bad to start the year like that? heh.
More later.
I also watched a movie "About Adam" yesterday. In a way, thi movie describes a large part of me. The movie is about a man who through influence and charm or sheer boldness, finds a way to constantly feed people exactly what it is they want, no matter the strain on himself. Makes him happy to appease others, which kind of is a base outline of who I am nowadays.
I'm home for another 19 days approximately. There are still a shitload of things I want to do, the challenge is accomplishing at least half, because I'll never realistically do them all.
My friends make me happy. but I've barely even seen 5 of them since I've been home. I miss my friends. I think next weekend I'll go to philly if they'll have me. I miss them, and I need love from them because they are amazing people.
I have a lot more to say, but I'm pretty tired at the moment. New year's this year was rather awful. Ive had this allergy-attack/ sinus cold for days, and it gets so bad i have to sleep just for relief. So yeah, i didnt even see the ball drop, I was asleep on my sofa curled up with my dogs by myself. So yeah, happy new year.
Hopefully this year will be a little better than last year. I even broke superstition and ate chicken, just because every other year i avoided it like tradition, and scrounged for money anyways, so maybe chicken is actually the answer. hell, if everything tastes like chicken, why is it bad to start the year like that? heh.
More later.