Tribute to Totti
Dear Totti,
Remember the day i took you in? You were so skinny and funny looking with your long legs and potruding rib cage. When i first look at you, instinctively i wanted to take you home with me.
The first few weeks were interesting as we learned more about one another. I discovered that you are the most sengal little kitten i have ever met. You ran into walls and sliding doors, you played fetch with your teddy bear, you climbed up my legs to get my attention and to top it off, you ran funny. Good times, wasn't it?
Soon after you developed your trust in me. I know this because when i call for you, you will come to me and sit on my lap. And at nights when i'm all alone, you would accompany me sleep, right next to me.
You have no idea how much i love you, Tot. Even though there are times i wanted to smack you for being naughty, (ie; you hancurkan selipar amar to a million pieces, tissue paper kena carik2 all over the house.) I know i've smacked you some before, and i'm sorry Tot. It didn't hurt that much right?
Anyway, you remember this one time me and pg had breakfast of nasi lemak in the room then we went out. When we came back home, kacang and sambal was all over my room. and then after awhile you came in and on your forehead there was a large tell tale sign of sambal proving that you were the culprit. That was funny as hell. You are just fucking adorable!
Totti, i'm sorry i have to give you away. I really really really am. If i were selfish, i would keep you to myself and not care about anything else. But i could see you were unhappy being held captive 24/7. I didn't mean to lock you in, Tot. You have to understand, there are several wild dogs roaming about our place. I don't want to risk your safety, just like a protective mum.
I don't want to neuter you Tot, that just seems so selfish. I can't deny you your balls just because i want you to be be a tad quieter. Who am i to decide that you can only be half a man?
So the only thing i could think of was to give you away to someone who could provide you the love and attention you need.
It was so hard letting you go Tot. I couldn't take you out of my arms. I can't believe that would be the last time i would be able to kiss your wet little nose and hold your soft sensitive paws. PG said we can go visit you anytime, but i know that won't work. We might see each other a few times after this but it would be different, you're someone else's cat now. You're going to make another family happy.
I'm so damn proud of you. You are by far, the most handsome one year old kitten. And you look so grown up too now. I wonder how much you would change, given time. Do you think you'd still remember me after awhile? Would you come stretching to me if i call out your name?
Please be good Totti, i know it wouldn't be hard for Bad's family to love you. You are precious just for being you. Make the new family happy just as you've made me. And make loads of friends okay? Get a real hot looking feline as your girlfriend and treat her nice. Make loads of babies and take care of them, don't eat you kids!
I shall definitely miss the sound of you little tinkering bell when you run around the house. i'll miss you greeting me at the door when i come home from class. I'll miss your stinky fishy breath even! i'll miss the way you make those adorable squeaks when you're sleeping. I'll miss the way you play kejar-kejar with the boys and when they cornered you, you'll cheat by falling flat on the floor and doing nothing. Hell, i'll even miss the way you try to bite my toes off when they're covered under a blanket. I'll miss the way you hardly ever wriggled when i cuddle and smother you with kisses.
The list, is quite endless..
Thank you Totti, for coming into my life. You have made me so happy with your antics and charm. This house will not be the same without you, believe me. The thought of you not being with me from now on is heart breaking.
I love you so much Totti, this is for the best.
Do take care, you fat furball. And stop eating insects and torturing bats.
Totti, remember me, as i will always, always, always remember you.
Love,
.b.
