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I was looking up some characteristics for INFP's, and among those listed was, "attracted to sad things". I was surprised by how true this is. It's the perfect wording to describe exactly what I'm feeling. I'm depressed because I haven't anything real to be depressed about, nothing dramatic or beautiful and tragic to ponder and draw inspiration from. I do find anything more cheerful than a bittersweet ending to a story unsatisfying. Maybe if I stopped treating life like a story, I'd be a little less worried about tripping over my lines in everyday conversation. Hmmm... how easy must I have it to WANT something bad to happen? And what do I want out of that "bad thing"? Am I going to stumble out into the rain, drop down to my knees and curse the heavens while an imaginary camera pans out majestically? What if the orchestra misses its cue?

Curse summer television programming.

I should start a private journal where I can stick this kind of post.