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i am already so sick of home.
silvia and i worked at a history convention for 5 days last week in boston, and it was amazinngggg. honestly, never had so much fun in my life on a vacation. we were both so happy to get away from school, friends, family, prom and all sorts of other shit for a few days. like at this point, thats exactly what i needed.
and i was excited to come home too, i mean i missed my friends and family, and today is zacks bday, so i was looking forward to that. but now, jesus i just want to go back. i feel like everything changed since i have been gone. like people are acting weirdly and i am so stressed about everything.
it just isnt enjoyable.
but, i guess right now im just a little bewildered. i just feel like i need something permanent and reliable in my life, something i can stand on. something that wont betray, fall apart or dissapoint me. maybe that will be acceptance to college, a new friend or adoption of a new attitude.
i dont know. this just fucking sucks.
silvia and i worked at a history convention for 5 days last week in boston, and it was amazinngggg. honestly, never had so much fun in my life on a vacation. we were both so happy to get away from school, friends, family, prom and all sorts of other shit for a few days. like at this point, thats exactly what i needed.
and i was excited to come home too, i mean i missed my friends and family, and today is zacks bday, so i was looking forward to that. but now, jesus i just want to go back. i feel like everything changed since i have been gone. like people are acting weirdly and i am so stressed about everything.
it just isnt enjoyable.
but, i guess right now im just a little bewildered. i just feel like i need something permanent and reliable in my life, something i can stand on. something that wont betray, fall apart or dissapoint me. maybe that will be acceptance to college, a new friend or adoption of a new attitude.
i dont know. this just fucking sucks.