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Last night I couldn't sleep again. But I slept in far into the morning. I just awoke a few minutes ago. I don't know what I dreamt, I have only fragments to remember, fragments of fragments. I feel a little cold, but I do not mind. Because I also feel a sweetness. An ache, but a very light ache accompanied by the hint of a warm feeling. It's almost like it was when I was in love, when I was awake and apart, yet without any despair. I'm feeling tired still, because I didn't sleep long. Only about 6 hours. But I like this. I hope I can trust this feeling. I am a bit happy because I missed this feeling for so long. I feel ... loving. And it feels a bit like when I was little and broke that door window and my mom got sad and sang this melancholic song. Is this something romantic? Now my head hurts. Maybe just because I smoke too much last night. Now I need to go to my doc, to my appointment. I'm an hour too late, but well .. I have no money for the tram, hope they will not have controllers today.