Prednisone
I was feeling sooo awesome last week with the prednisone that I forgot the full reason I hate it. Feeling pretty down and hopeless all of the sudden and still claustrophobic like last week (usually there is a clear winner between my depression and anxiety and when I'm feeling better physically anxiety is worse). Also, I really need the energy to get up and do stuff that I don't have because I feel like I'm starving all the time and I don't usually get hungry very often so I usually need to eat if I do which makes it hard to ignore.
I've been going to the behavioral health clinic at strong for a while now and I just don't think that it's been helpful, I'm wondering how long I'll be willing to spend 25 dollars a week to talk to/confuse someone. Wednesday I start a group therapy session, hopefully that will be a lower copay for my insurance since I have to do both. Tomorrow the goal is to come up with better ways to deal with the intense anxiety, we'll see what she comes up with. I keep trying forms of meditation and they tend to just make me angry. I think I may have some serious imbalance in my brain since this seems to work for most people. At least my meds for the depression/anxiety seem to be working since I don't feel a compelling need to bang my head against the wall (now it's just an easily ignorable thought I'm having) and I haven't had panic set off my asthma.
I don't know if I'm ever as aware of all of the pain in my body until it starts coming back after a prednisone dose. It seems I have an obvious inflammation issue but for some reason it never shows up as a known problem despite having tons of blood drawn for testing. Also, it feels like someone is squeezing my throat/I'm having an allergic reaction every time I eat. It probably wouldn't be as bad if I could manage to remember to take my med in the nebulizer 4 times a day but that's sooo often. Sinus headache, dizzyness and sneezing along with the prednisone spurt seems to mean an oncoming sinus infection. I really should buy distilled water for my nasal irrigation bottle thing so that I could use it.
Need to get to wegmans to get salty food that's not horribly unhealthy (lower fat potato chips, natural popcorn and pumpkin seeds) but I only want to put the energy in trying to get to wegmans if I can find one that has cinnamon chex which is like my favorite cereal ever right now (I'm mad at LIFE cereal because it has red dye).
I really need to print out or write down my grocery list so I stop forgetting stuff.
I made a chicken in the crockpot today, I really need to remember it's not necessary to put liquid in the crockpot (or at least not much). Also, it seems chicken does not keep getting better if you cook it longer than recommended (Beef and pork do very well with 12-16 hours or ore in the crockpot).
I've been going to the behavioral health clinic at strong for a while now and I just don't think that it's been helpful, I'm wondering how long I'll be willing to spend 25 dollars a week to talk to/confuse someone. Wednesday I start a group therapy session, hopefully that will be a lower copay for my insurance since I have to do both. Tomorrow the goal is to come up with better ways to deal with the intense anxiety, we'll see what she comes up with. I keep trying forms of meditation and they tend to just make me angry. I think I may have some serious imbalance in my brain since this seems to work for most people. At least my meds for the depression/anxiety seem to be working since I don't feel a compelling need to bang my head against the wall (now it's just an easily ignorable thought I'm having) and I haven't had panic set off my asthma.
I don't know if I'm ever as aware of all of the pain in my body until it starts coming back after a prednisone dose. It seems I have an obvious inflammation issue but for some reason it never shows up as a known problem despite having tons of blood drawn for testing. Also, it feels like someone is squeezing my throat/I'm having an allergic reaction every time I eat. It probably wouldn't be as bad if I could manage to remember to take my med in the nebulizer 4 times a day but that's sooo often. Sinus headache, dizzyness and sneezing along with the prednisone spurt seems to mean an oncoming sinus infection. I really should buy distilled water for my nasal irrigation bottle thing so that I could use it.
Need to get to wegmans to get salty food that's not horribly unhealthy (lower fat potato chips, natural popcorn and pumpkin seeds) but I only want to put the energy in trying to get to wegmans if I can find one that has cinnamon chex which is like my favorite cereal ever right now (I'm mad at LIFE cereal because it has red dye).
I really need to print out or write down my grocery list so I stop forgetting stuff.
I made a chicken in the crockpot today, I really need to remember it's not necessary to put liquid in the crockpot (or at least not much). Also, it seems chicken does not keep getting better if you cook it longer than recommended (Beef and pork do very well with 12-16 hours or ore in the crockpot).