I would never dare to make the mistake of even suggesting that you didn't constantly put everything you possibly can into everything you do, ESPECIALLY when it comes to your family. I'm glad that you were able to find the words to say this in your journal. I don't need to tell you that your feelings are valid, but just in case, know that your frustration and anger doesn't fall on deaf ears. You have both reason and right to feel this way, to be pissed off at others for attempting to judge you when they can't possibly know what it's like to be in your shoes. Are you writing articles or blogging for any of the online venues who have previously employed you? I can only guess at what kind of schedule you have, or if you'd even have time to do so. I've been meaning to ask you how you got hired by such places, as even though I don't have the responsibility (and blessing) you have as a wife and mother, the economy obviously sucks. Just remember, your current role as a SAHM is something that you and B decided was best for YOUR family. It was a decision you made together, and although your job description seems to include everything in the known universe, it DOESN'T include having to justify yourself or your decisions to other people. You have the right to feel any way you want, and nobody else has the right to define what or how you feel, regardless of their preconceived notions. Sweetie, you ALWAYS break the mold in EVERYTHING you do. It's one of your awesome super-powers, and there's no damn reason why you should be trying to squeeze yourself into the mold now. There's even less of a reason you should feel like you have to make excuses because you won't. Plainly, they can kiss your ass.
Thanks, lady. Interestingly enough, I know the post wasn't directed at me, but it nevertheless upset me. Until I see evidence to the contrary, I generally assume EVERY person, regardless of whether they stay at home or work outside of it, is putting everything they can into making their family life the best they can. You know?
But it does stir up feelings because I've heard people comment similar things to me, and I realized that's what got to me, too. That even people in my own life don't understand just how damn lonely and isolating it can be to live this life. As I said in another comment, for me personally, the hardest part is both that I'm not financially contributing and that I can go days without seeing another person (that isn't related to me). It's a little too close to my mom's existence for my comfort.
As far as the blogs and such--I'll contact you via Facebook, okay?
I also find myself lonely bc I go for days w/o seeing anybody but Amanda. I'm also consistently aware that my circumstances are of my own doing, and not carefully planned out, or planned at all. Not that I can "see" you, but I've got an open schedule, so feel free to call or text me at any time. My Skype username is the same as my LJ username. Maybe we can "keep each other company".
Are you writing articles or blogging for any of the online venues who have previously employed you? I can only guess at what kind of schedule you have, or if you'd even have time to do so. I've been meaning to ask you how you got hired by such places, as even though I don't have the responsibility (and blessing) you have as a wife and mother, the economy obviously sucks.
Just remember, your current role as a SAHM is something that you and B decided was best for YOUR family. It was a decision you made together, and although your job description seems to include everything in the known universe, it DOESN'T include having to justify yourself or your decisions to other people. You have the right to feel any way you want, and nobody else has the right to define what or how you feel, regardless of their preconceived notions.
Sweetie, you ALWAYS break the mold in EVERYTHING you do. It's one of your awesome super-powers, and there's no damn reason why you should be trying to squeeze yourself into the mold now. There's even less of a reason you should feel like you have to make excuses because you won't. Plainly, they can kiss your ass.
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But it does stir up feelings because I've heard people comment similar things to me, and I realized that's what got to me, too. That even people in my own life don't understand just how damn lonely and isolating it can be to live this life. As I said in another comment, for me personally, the hardest part is both that I'm not financially contributing and that I can go days without seeing another person (that isn't related to me). It's a little too close to my mom's existence for my comfort.
As far as the blogs and such--I'll contact you via Facebook, okay?
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