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Today is one of those days I feel abandoned and alone. No real reason for this... it's just that stuff triggers such emotions in me once in a while.
I guess, I wish I know what truth in life is. Yes I know in my head and heart that Jesus is the truth, but honestly, i kinda hope that only the real baddies go to hell (but can leave once they repent). Why is it that everything must be explained in black and white? The God in my heart, is He really so "cruel" as to be able to send people to Hell? I hate to think of it like this... perhaps i'm heading there, who knows? Who really knows who the hell (no pun intended) goes to heaven and who goes to hell.
So tired, my mind keeps working non-stop and i'm filled with a lot of thoughts about life and death - all these i keep to myself because there is no one to share with. Or rather, even if to share it, i think no one would understand what i'm thinking.
Some days, i feel like i'm wasting my life, just living each day doing the same stuff... waking up, going to work, rushing through the crowds, rushing home after work just to make sure i reach as early as possible. Clean the house, play some games on iphone, watch some telly, go to sleep... why? Why do i have this sneaky feeling at times that my life is wasting away...
On other days, i'm like "Fuck It" i don't care. I just wanna do what i want and let life waste away.
What does Life consist of? Have you ever thought about it? What truly does LIFE means to you?
I guess, I wish I know what truth in life is. Yes I know in my head and heart that Jesus is the truth, but honestly, i kinda hope that only the real baddies go to hell (but can leave once they repent). Why is it that everything must be explained in black and white? The God in my heart, is He really so "cruel" as to be able to send people to Hell? I hate to think of it like this... perhaps i'm heading there, who knows? Who really knows who the hell (no pun intended) goes to heaven and who goes to hell.
So tired, my mind keeps working non-stop and i'm filled with a lot of thoughts about life and death - all these i keep to myself because there is no one to share with. Or rather, even if to share it, i think no one would understand what i'm thinking.
Some days, i feel like i'm wasting my life, just living each day doing the same stuff... waking up, going to work, rushing through the crowds, rushing home after work just to make sure i reach as early as possible. Clean the house, play some games on iphone, watch some telly, go to sleep... why? Why do i have this sneaky feeling at times that my life is wasting away...
On other days, i'm like "Fuck It" i don't care. I just wanna do what i want and let life waste away.
What does Life consist of? Have you ever thought about it? What truly does LIFE means to you?