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why why why.
why does everything blow up in my head. how is it that i've strived for self-consciousness my etire adolescent life, found some happy places, but still have the capacity to breakdown my world. Piece by piece, questioning happiness by happiness.
I suppose we're all momentary people. I wish i was independently momentary. Aeeehhh, maybe not. That would be denial of the ultimate connectivity of everthing...and im not into denial. So what then? I become numb to the actions surrounding my brain? Dont sweat the small stuff? I think my problem is the small stuff becomes the big stuff, thats where we get into my problems with prioritization and the paradox of selflessness in my life.
Now, if I am doing just fine, and have good grades, my direction figured, and prospects for future improvement, do i have prioritization problems? It seems I can afford a good sum of time to devote to those things loved in my life. I guess THATS the priority problem, not time, but what's loved. What does it take for me to maintain that? Cost vs. benefits as they call it in economics._ I suppose we all have a 'value' system for such priorities and I wish mine was more balanced_
VOR:_Stop wishing_ just balance.
T: Easier said than done, Voice of Reason.
The ultimate question is: does this self fabricated reasoning of prioritization make me happy....Thats a complicated little story now isnt it. Rationality, reason, just cause, it all goes out the window sometimes when life throws you a curveball.
why does everything blow up in my head. how is it that i've strived for self-consciousness my etire adolescent life, found some happy places, but still have the capacity to breakdown my world. Piece by piece, questioning happiness by happiness.
I suppose we're all momentary people. I wish i was independently momentary. Aeeehhh, maybe not. That would be denial of the ultimate connectivity of everthing...and im not into denial. So what then? I become numb to the actions surrounding my brain? Dont sweat the small stuff? I think my problem is the small stuff becomes the big stuff, thats where we get into my problems with prioritization and the paradox of selflessness in my life.
Now, if I am doing just fine, and have good grades, my direction figured, and prospects for future improvement, do i have prioritization problems? It seems I can afford a good sum of time to devote to those things loved in my life. I guess THATS the priority problem, not time, but what's loved. What does it take for me to maintain that? Cost vs. benefits as they call it in economics._ I suppose we all have a 'value' system for such priorities and I wish mine was more balanced_
VOR:_Stop wishing_ just balance.
T: Easier said than done, Voice of Reason.
The ultimate question is: does this self fabricated reasoning of prioritization make me happy....Thats a complicated little story now isnt it. Rationality, reason, just cause, it all goes out the window sometimes when life throws you a curveball.