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WELL ..LETS SEE.. WHATS HAS BEEN GOING ON IN MY LIFE...FIRST OF ALL LET ME TAKE OFF THE CAPS CAUSE ITS LOOKS LIKE IM SCREAMING...LOL...much better... ok so the past couple of days have been pretty stressful...i had a huge group project due yesterday and i get my grade back tomorrow ::crossing fingers:: i think we did alright.. anyway... im so sick of writing papers.. and studying..blah... i didnt go to my second class today... i went to see jorge.. we hung out until we both had to go to work.. hes soo cute..lol...
ari's bday is soon.. ive been thinking about her lately... i talked about her with some friends the other day ... i also heard tiny dancer today because kalina called me and left it on my answering machine.. i had just finished waking up from a nap so i was out of it and started crying like crazy because i thought i had forgotten her bday and for some reason i thought they had done something like a ceremony for her bday since kalina called me and held the phone up for me to hear the song... luckily i realized it was only the 20th and started to calm down.. i want to take her flowers next week..
things like this shouldnt happen to people like her. she was the most beautiful person and i got so angry today thinking about it because i remembered the first day she talked to me.. when she defended me the summer going into freshman year cause i think it was leo or dayan that made a remark about my height...lol she was soo funny with her tips highlighted in blue...i think it was blue
man it so weird how from one second everything in life is great and the next u find out u wont be graduating with a good friend that touched more lives than she ever thought. we were so excited about having weight training together our senior year and she didnt even come to our first class.. wow.. senior year sucked so bad.. cause of so mamny things that happened.. but that just topped it off let me tell u.
sometimes we think our problems are so bad... like having ur heart broken into the smallest pieces or getting a bad grade in a couple classes or feeling like theres no time for anything cause of work and school.. ive had all those so called "problems".. and none is so big or could ever compare to what her family had to go through last year. it was so horrible to lose such a great person...such a wonderful friend...i will never forget how packed her funeral was...and she thought no one ever liked her.. which got me so mad .. i would always tell her to stop talking that way cause i mean come on.. how could u not like that girl with the pick tails that were highlighted with blue and that had the most contagious laugh and the one that tried to speak spanish when she was jewish (her favorite phrase was cono su madre...saby and i taught her that) or the one that made her own dress for junior prom and wore converse sneakers the night of the event..
she was surely one of a kind and one person that i will never forget because she absolutely touched my life and was always there for me when i needed to talk about my personal life or there just to calm me down when i thought about how i was going to fail that history test we both studied hours for on the phone the night before. man how i think of this and get so upset that she couldnt finish her last high school year with all her friends and have her mom and dad watch her walk up to get her diploma.
i am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason...but what could possibly be a good reason for taking her away from us. i thought about it and i cant really come up with one but i know i cant be angry and blame God..her time came early but shes with God now and i know that for a fact because she was an angel here on earth that was sent here to show us how fine life really is and how we should never take that for granted because we only get one shot and whats worse... we will never know when that one shot ends.
ari's bday is soon.. ive been thinking about her lately... i talked about her with some friends the other day ... i also heard tiny dancer today because kalina called me and left it on my answering machine.. i had just finished waking up from a nap so i was out of it and started crying like crazy because i thought i had forgotten her bday and for some reason i thought they had done something like a ceremony for her bday since kalina called me and held the phone up for me to hear the song... luckily i realized it was only the 20th and started to calm down.. i want to take her flowers next week..
things like this shouldnt happen to people like her. she was the most beautiful person and i got so angry today thinking about it because i remembered the first day she talked to me.. when she defended me the summer going into freshman year cause i think it was leo or dayan that made a remark about my height...lol she was soo funny with her tips highlighted in blue...i think it was blue
man it so weird how from one second everything in life is great and the next u find out u wont be graduating with a good friend that touched more lives than she ever thought. we were so excited about having weight training together our senior year and she didnt even come to our first class.. wow.. senior year sucked so bad.. cause of so mamny things that happened.. but that just topped it off let me tell u.
sometimes we think our problems are so bad... like having ur heart broken into the smallest pieces or getting a bad grade in a couple classes or feeling like theres no time for anything cause of work and school.. ive had all those so called "problems".. and none is so big or could ever compare to what her family had to go through last year. it was so horrible to lose such a great person...such a wonderful friend...i will never forget how packed her funeral was...and she thought no one ever liked her.. which got me so mad .. i would always tell her to stop talking that way cause i mean come on.. how could u not like that girl with the pick tails that were highlighted with blue and that had the most contagious laugh and the one that tried to speak spanish when she was jewish (her favorite phrase was cono su madre...saby and i taught her that) or the one that made her own dress for junior prom and wore converse sneakers the night of the event..
she was surely one of a kind and one person that i will never forget because she absolutely touched my life and was always there for me when i needed to talk about my personal life or there just to calm me down when i thought about how i was going to fail that history test we both studied hours for on the phone the night before. man how i think of this and get so upset that she couldnt finish her last high school year with all her friends and have her mom and dad watch her walk up to get her diploma.
i am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason...but what could possibly be a good reason for taking her away from us. i thought about it and i cant really come up with one but i know i cant be angry and blame God..her time came early but shes with God now and i know that for a fact because she was an angel here on earth that was sent here to show us how fine life really is and how we should never take that for granted because we only get one shot and whats worse... we will never know when that one shot ends.