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its crazy how shit changes from one second to the next...today was a weird day. very random, thats for sure. I was with stephanie at work and we found out some information regarding a child that we DID NOT want or need to know. can we say disturbing!! then, at around 6... the one and only, EX, called. i havent talked to him in about a month and a half. he said a lot of shit that was code for, i just want to know i have u there for whenever. well, thats what luis, jorge's friend and jorge say. so im taking it as that. man, its funny how i believe everything and justify everything bryan does. why does he keep calling me and coming back. theres nothing left. he wants to be friends..but i cant be friends with him. i was never just friends with him. being friends only gives the potential for something else to happen, and i care about jorge way to much to fuck things up. ive been down that road before and it did nothing for me, except stress the living shit out of me. im on this new path, and loving it. i must admit, though, him calling me was nervewrecking, but at the same time i was happy, just because i hadnt heard from him in forever. im glad hes doing great but u know what, its time to let him know, i want NOTHING...not even his friendship...not now anyway. i wish i didnt have to do that, cause its sad to think someone that was once everything to u will now be gone forever, but i want things with jorge to work. he is the BESTEST!! i have never been able to express myself as i could with jorge. i can tell him anything and tell him everything, even about this phone call. he didnt take it to well, but i thought he should know.. besides..bryan cant possibly care that much about a friendhip that was never there. he didnt value the time we had together or my friendship while we were together or ME for that matter. I dont owe him anything. thats that. my life is like a novela... i swear....well, im off to read for english and call my honey bunch..lol.. how gay.. so i will be back lllaater!!! take care people!!!