The other side
So apparently there was a lot going on in his life that I didn't know about.
http://shadynights.livejournal.com/14350.html
This explains so much...but nothing of what I was aware of at the time.
I just want none of this to ever have happened.
I was completely clueless...because he never gave me a clue. What the fuck happened?
And since when is Nightshade his bestest best friend in the whole wide world, to whom he tells every little tiny detail of everything??
I had NO CLUE any of this was going on. Not because I didn't want to hear it...but because HE DIDN"T TELL ME!
And no, I never intended to publicize all this shit the way it's been done, but hey, he wasn't talking and I needed support.
I DON"T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE!!
OH, and I was NEVER some fucking frail leaf that had to be handled with kid gloves. FOR FUCK'S SAKE, I'm a GROWN woman and though I've been through some shit and sometimes REACT with EMOTION, I can stand on my own fucking two feet. FUCK!
I'm still in shock right now, and will keep adding to this post throughout the day.
I never told anybody to "take sides", in fact I insisted that he not be thought badly of for this.
And you knwo what? It would have been AWFUL for me to have insisted that he stay in the marriage, but I had no idea that things were bad...at all. He made one attempt to end it, one time, and then retracted it and begged my forgiveness before I even recieved the letter in the mail.
And again, NONE of this would be even in the least bit shared with anyone if he'd been up front with ME from the VERY BEGINNING. It IS no one else's business...but he's made it so by not communicating with me.
http://shadynights.livejournal.com/14350.html
This explains so much...but nothing of what I was aware of at the time.
I just want none of this to ever have happened.
I was completely clueless...because he never gave me a clue. What the fuck happened?
And since when is Nightshade his bestest best friend in the whole wide world, to whom he tells every little tiny detail of everything??
I had NO CLUE any of this was going on. Not because I didn't want to hear it...but because HE DIDN"T TELL ME!
And no, I never intended to publicize all this shit the way it's been done, but hey, he wasn't talking and I needed support.
I DON"T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE!!
OH, and I was NEVER some fucking frail leaf that had to be handled with kid gloves. FOR FUCK'S SAKE, I'm a GROWN woman and though I've been through some shit and sometimes REACT with EMOTION, I can stand on my own fucking two feet. FUCK!
I'm still in shock right now, and will keep adding to this post throughout the day.
I never told anybody to "take sides", in fact I insisted that he not be thought badly of for this.
And you knwo what? It would have been AWFUL for me to have insisted that he stay in the marriage, but I had no idea that things were bad...at all. He made one attempt to end it, one time, and then retracted it and begged my forgiveness before I even recieved the letter in the mail.
And again, NONE of this would be even in the least bit shared with anyone if he'd been up front with ME from the VERY BEGINNING. It IS no one else's business...but he's made it so by not communicating with me.