My God it's only Tuesday tomorrow, and Loved One's gone and blown it all
Had a fun day today!! Sad but fun...=(
Went out to Simi and made pillows for my dorm with my aunt while Heather watched and hung out with us, then we went to lunch at Chilis... I've never been to Chili's... it was fun.
my pillows turned out really cute!! we made the woody ones with all those beach prints... there is one more hiding in the abck.. fun eh?
Anwyay so the rest of my day.... I said goodbye to Heather becuase I won't see her until prob. Thanksgiving... it's funny becuase you know you can always count on family to be there in the end. I was just thinking about that; she and I will always be close becuase we're related and we'll always be there for one another even when our friends are out of state or moved away; the family is the one thing that sticks together through the years. My sisters will always be my sisters; my cousins will always be my cousins; friends may not always be my friends. It's nice to know that God placed people in our life that we can count on like that.
Then I got home and took a nap. Jeff called and I had fun going out to Barnes and Noble with him and then we stopped by Target and I got some movies. At the bookstore I saw a few books I'd like to get so I think I'll go back before I leave with the credit card (so my mom can pay for them) LOL haha jk... no I pay my bills grrr... .weird changes!
I was going to go running but I got home and was so emotionally drained from saying goodbye to Heather and then Jeff--who I wont see until Christmas.... WAHHHHH BOOO HOOO =(-- and from trying to figure out what's going on with Steven that I decided I would skip the run and just run tomorrow with Leanne.
I don't understand where he's coming from but I'm thinking that in a few days it doesn't even matter anymore. I can just walk out of his life and he can relax and find something to focus his attention on and not be so angry at me all the time. I wish the tension was gone but there's nothing to be done about it. We've both said such nasty things to each other that it's a good thing I'm going away; he can have his space and maybe in a few years things will cool off and we can look back and laugh at how stupid we were. I know thats the way it always goes; this is just a stage everyone goes through where we each always have to be right and we're too stubborn to forgive and forget. But when the stage is over, we'll look back and feel regret over the nice things that went unsaid and the friendship we could have had. But we're both too young to see it yet. Too young to laugh; too young....
I leave in three days and I'm trying to get my life in order before I go. Particularly my room cleaned and my car vaccuumed out. My room is almost there; just gotta get my last clothes out of here and the desk swiped off. Last few picture frames need to be packed too. Two more places to put pictures... and I'd like a photo alblum. To put a collage of photos in or something.... hey i have a hawaiian one... hmmm taht could work with my whole beach theme... but its the wrong colors.... ill look around anyway.
Yeah so that's the rest of my day. Tomorrow I'm going to lunch with Beth then to a movie with Ryen then to Costco and Vons to get the rest of my stuff, then meeting Paige and Catherine at Golden Spoon for ice cream at eight. Oh yeah and running with Leanne in the morning at like eight. Then on Wenesday I go to lunch with Shawn and maybe Cesar? I have to call him and see if he wants to... we're going to Subway.. OH i should call Jeshua too!! It'll be most of the fam... Auston might be interested.. I'll ask Shawn before that one.
Well thats all I got for now.... KIT and I'll give my mailing address to anyone who wants it... I'm not gona post it here for just anyone to read though. And I may be changing my livejournal soon. May get a new name, may never even post again. Just because I dont want people posting hate emails... even if it is just his DAD. And I'll giv eyou my username if you ask nicely.