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nightmares.
all sorts, aliens, zombies, elephant spiders, monsters, robots, killer clowns, sharks, global war, falling, drowning, yadda yadda yadda....
been waking up early in the morning, crying, or scared, feeling like i am having axiety attacks triggered by my nightmares.
i have never had an anxiety attack, so i don't know if what i am feeling is anxiety, or a panic attack...
i wake up and there is a pit in my stomach, sometimes it feels like i am just gonna puke my whole stomach up. it hurts
same feeling when you ride a roller coaster, on the first drop, except it is a consistant feeling.
i have been considering the shrink idea.
i know i am fucked up enough to go to one, i just took the idea seriously till now. but i probably won't.
any ways, i have to call terry at mmi to see if my FAFSA went through. they haven't sent me any thing, so i am worried.
mmi already accepted me, terry sent me another packet with letters of congrats, and a refridgerator magnet.
this has been something i wish i had done long time ago, and it is so close, it's like when you couldn't reach the cookie jar when you were little, so you have to find a sturdy stool to support you), but the stool can only take you so far.the rest you have to do yourself. the cookie jar is still slightly out of reach, but all you have to do is stand on your tippy toes and you got it! well FAFSA is my tippy toes, and they aren't fully extended yet.
wow, the analagy on a cookie jar...maybe i really do need that shrink...lol
all sorts, aliens, zombies, elephant spiders, monsters, robots, killer clowns, sharks, global war, falling, drowning, yadda yadda yadda....
been waking up early in the morning, crying, or scared, feeling like i am having axiety attacks triggered by my nightmares.
i have never had an anxiety attack, so i don't know if what i am feeling is anxiety, or a panic attack...
i wake up and there is a pit in my stomach, sometimes it feels like i am just gonna puke my whole stomach up. it hurts
same feeling when you ride a roller coaster, on the first drop, except it is a consistant feeling.
i have been considering the shrink idea.
i know i am fucked up enough to go to one, i just took the idea seriously till now. but i probably won't.
any ways, i have to call terry at mmi to see if my FAFSA went through. they haven't sent me any thing, so i am worried.
mmi already accepted me, terry sent me another packet with letters of congrats, and a refridgerator magnet.
this has been something i wish i had done long time ago, and it is so close, it's like when you couldn't reach the cookie jar when you were little, so you have to find a sturdy stool to support you), but the stool can only take you so far.the rest you have to do yourself. the cookie jar is still slightly out of reach, but all you have to do is stand on your tippy toes and you got it! well FAFSA is my tippy toes, and they aren't fully extended yet.
wow, the analagy on a cookie jar...maybe i really do need that shrink...lol